Echoes of My Neighbourhood:  Organizing Areas of Life


Thank you to Jacqueline of A Cooking Pot and Twisted Tales for this wonderful prompt each Thursday to share parts of our lives and neighbourhoods. Jacqueline is a talented lady. Take a listen to some of her spoken poetry on her blog from YouTube. You won’t be disappointed.

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When we become a certain age when we are young, most of us get to have our own room at some point. In our room each type of different items have their place, various kinds of toys, clothes etc. As you grow older your room can become an area that incorporates different rooms into one by how you organize your spaces. 

I’m aware I am a bit old to be living at home still and it is my dream to have my own condo someday soon. But my health has made it so I need to stay at home. I cannot be independent enough to be completely on my own. 

Sometimes such as now, I’m doing considerably better then in the past. I do pay rent at home and help out where I can. I still feel I can’t help out as much as I should, but there are times I do not have the energy to do chores. I split up a chore often, so I can do it over two or three days so I don’t become worn out. My parents are extremely understanding, especially at the times when I’m feeling not well and can’t do much at all. I try, I guess that is what counts. Living at home also, allows me to take classes. I’m so happy for that.

Here are a few areas of organization in my room:

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Jewelry Box (Amanda Eifert)
 
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I bought this for $13.00 at Winners, it is a cardboard decorated jewelry box with a Paris theme. I like it a lot. It has small shelved in a areas on top and a couple of drawers underneath. I think it looks pretty and it keeps my jewelry from getting dusty or becoming tarnished. I do have more jewelry not in the box, but hung over a mirror, and a few bracelets where I store my perfume.

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Perfume Rack (Amanda Eifert)
 
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I bought this on the Modclothe website. As some of you know, Modclothe is a wonderful website for woman who are  average and/or plus size to find clothes that have a vintage twist to them. They are a fantastic place for fancy dresses, bathing suites for any body type, interesting accessories, lingerie, and even fascinating items for your house, condo, or apartment. This is a spice rack which I have used for my perfume collection and to hang a few cuffs.

 I’m trying to use up the perfume I have. I have one or two bottles that are eight-years old. I don’t think perfume lasts that long but it still smells good so I wear it. My favourite perfume is by Chanel and is called “Chance eau Tendre.” I’m also a huge fan of Marc Jacob perfumes. I have his original perfume “Daisy” and have used up one or two other perfumes by him. I usually save up my Optimum points until I have $60 or $80 worth and use that for a new scent. But right now, no perfume for me. I need to use up two or three bottles first! 

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Bedside Table/Makeup Table (Amanda Eifert)
 
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Here is an important area, my Bedside table and makeup table. The table is actually a stool from IKEA and it has been repainted a couple of times. The lamp was inexpensive,  I think about $20.00. The storage container my makeup is in, is a file-folder and office supply holder and was about $15.00 at Staples. It works well to organize my makeup and I only have a few items of makeup I have to hide behind it. My rule is to use my makeup up, so even though it appears as if I have a lot, I use it all. As you know from my beauty posts, I adore makeup! 

There are a few items (fad items) such as a bright blue eyeshadow that eventually get recycled but other then that any new makeup I get via Luxebox for instance, that I won’t use or have a similar item, I give to friends who have skin tones that suit the makeup. I also add makeup items in Birthday presents for little extras for girl friends. I should note, the table is near my closet door mirror. I know they are ‘out’ now in terms of interior design but closet door mirrors are extremely handy and a great use of space.

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Magnetic Whiteboard (Amanda Eifert)
 
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I think this Magnetic Whiteboard is a handy item to have in a bedroom/kitchen/or coat room. I write items I need or want to buy on it, for in the near future. I make notes such as what kind of ink cartridge my printer uses. I also post photos of friends and relatives. Currently, the magnetic section of the board is full of baby pictures from friends. At the bottom of the section is a foam cushion I can tac things on. Right now I have that POPSUGAR booklist which I’ve barely started tacked on the board. Hopefully, I make some progress on the list soon.

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Planning/Colouring Area (Amanda Eifert)
 
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Yes, this is only a place on my carpet on the floor in my room. I sit here and I plan my novel and other pieces I want to write. You can see the notebook with scribbles in the back. I love pretty notebooks or journals too. Coles or Indigo, tempted me with a couple of notebooks the other week — one notebook for me and one for a part of a friend’s birthday present. Indigo or Coles have a great selection of journals, notebooks, and stationary. Papyrus is often good for that as well.

The other itens you see here are the mediums I use to do adult colouring with. It is a relaxing activity to do at night. I have three different sets of Faber-Castell Artist Pen Brushes in Bright Colours, Pastel Colours, Terra Colours, as well as some black Pen Brushes of varied thicknesses downstairs. Also, I have Staedtler Watercolour crayons with a watercolour brush, and a Prismacolour set of twenty-four pencil crayons. It was all art mediums we used to render a room in Residential Design. I recommend all these mediums because they are excellent quality and a much fun. At the least, if you enjoy adult colouring, buy yourself excellent pencil crayons. They have greater blendibility and are better if you mess up and use the wrong shade. You can often work away a misplaced colour with another pencil crayon. Michaels is wonderful to buy nice art supplies with forty-percent off coupons or in Edmonton buy local and get a discount if you are a student at Delta Art. I enjoy Delta Art because for a small shipping fee in the city you can choose your supplies online and have it the following few days. Also, instore all the employees at Delta Art are extremely knowledgable about all their products.

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And then I Awoke!


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It has been a frustrating past 3 weeks but the situation is looking up. I spent 3 weeks almost just sleeping trying to get use to an antipsychotic drug for sleeping. This drug would allow me to use less of another sleeping pill I need to sleep and give me greater cognitive clarity. But the truth is you never know how you are going to react to medications. There are so many side effects I wonder sometimes why we bother with them at all and I also wonder for the people taking them if they truly are helping them despite the side effects.

The medication I was on at only half a pill even just made me sleep. When I started to sleep a bit less I found myself extremely foggy and having even less energy then I had before. To give you some idea, walking from the beginning of one wing of Kingsway Mall to the end at of that wing made me extremely fatigued both physically and mentally. The mall wasn’t busy but it seemed noisy to me and I couldn’t really concentrate on looking at clothes or shoes or anything ( very odd for me), I just sat in a waiting area while my mom looked.

But I decided after that outing that this drug I was on was not to be because it wasn’t

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fixing anything for me just making it worst. So I went back on my Gabepentin and felt extremely sleepy on that medication all day until yesterday when I finally felt awake enough and had energy enough to go downtown and just do simple errands such as going to the drugstore. I started gift shopping as I have 4 birthdays, Mother’s Day, and 2 baby presents to get. I have 2 birthday presents picked out and both baby presents. My brother will take care of the Mother’s Day present so I’m just left with 2 Birthday’s that I’m thinking I will leave until May, although I will have to make a stop at Papyrus or some card store before the middle of May.

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Because I missed 2 classes of my Lighting course and I wasn’t sure how long I would miss class for I decided to drop the course. I wasn’t happy about it but I know after missing 2 3 hour classes I couldn’t catch up. So, in September I will be able to finally take that Residential Design course. I just want to get it over with but that is the soonest I can take it. I will see what courses they offer but maybe I will do Green Design if it is available — that course interests me a lot.

I also thought I could take an editing course instead at home in spring but it turns out nothing that I have perquisites for is available. So that is disappointing! I wish SFU had something I could take. But oh well I guess I will just have a long summer.

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The worst thing about being home and asleep 24-7 was having to cancel plans with friends and A. Sometimes it is difficult to find times to visit people so I am kind of hoping I can replan events with not to much trouble. Also, since my boyfriend A has been home on sick leave from work I’ve seen him about a half hour in 3 weeks and that bothers me when he is actually home that I haven’t been well enough to have a decent conversation with him. I know once he goes back to work it will be 3 weeks on and 1 week off again but all the more reason to see him more now.

But I feel back to normal again and that’s such a relief. Take care everyone and have a good weekend!

Happiness is the Fish That You Can Catch!


HappinessIs+Not+A+Fish+That+You+Can+CatchIf any of you are Our Lady Peace fans you will know that I changed the title of one of their CD’s for my blog title. There title was Happiness is Not a Fish That You Can Catch but when I picture this title I think of happiness as being something that is very elusive just like a gold-fish slipping through your cupped hands again and again as you try to catch it. But sometimes, if your lucky and you are looking at the world just right, Happiness is A Fish that You Can Catch because you see, that little gold-fish is already caught in your fish bowl or pond. The way one looks at the world has a lot of precedence in how things can appear. Then again, you might just be lucky and see the world in a unique light somedays, such as seeing the world in the glow of happiness.

What have I got to be so happy about, well I can’t explain it exactly. Everything just seems to be finally working out and going well. I’m not sure why but I think these times that make us content help us make it through the hard times. Something that has made me very happy is the ability to sleep well. I went to my Sleep Doctor and he gave me a drug that is used to help epilepsy patients sleep deep and not have episodes in their sleep. A large effect of this drug is that it can make you really drowsy. The side effects are what I’m using the drug for because I have gone from using over 20, 5 mg melatonin to a couple of these new pills and 6 melatonin. I sleep so deeply and wake up feeling extremely refreshed, something that has eluded me for a long time. So, I’m excited to wake up and feel energetic, at least for a little while. I also am (maybe not rightly so) elated that my sleep doctor is in agreement with my psychiatrist that something else is going on with my health that isn’t psychiatric. When I first had the psychotic episode and became depressed this was not caused by something psychiatric it was caused by the unknown factor, let’s call it x. I am waiting now this week to hopefully see my family doctor and I have hope that what I am experiencing (x) is something that can be changed because it is physical in nature. Maybe it is naïve for me to think this but it is the most hopeful I have felt about my health in a long time.

Secondly, I have been able to shop a ton lately. I know this isn’t such a great or unique thing for a lot of people. But I’ve been on a budget and had to cut back on my spending, especially on clothing and things I would just like to have. Sometimes affording the things I needed has been tough. But I saved up for Christmas, had some money left from a dress I’d saved up for and returned to Anthropologie,  and had a gift card from Anthropologie because they accidentally sent me 2 extra dresses after I returned the first, so I was able to shop to my heart’s content. And although I appreciated buying some items for myself, what I loved the most was shopping for and finishing my shopping for my family and friends down to the mandetory chocolates. I did most of my shopping online and I think that was a good idea because it would have exhausted me getting all that I needed to buy in two or three long trips to the mall ( except for wrapping paper, gift bags, and chocolate). I think everyone will like their gifts and I’m excited for them to arrive in the mail so I can wrap everything up and put my presents together.

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Not to mention, I carefully chose a couple of items for myself that I will show you here. The first thing I bought was a slip from Anthropologie. It is beautiful and fits like a dream. It is very elegant and the cream is white enough that it looks good on my pale skin. I love the lingerie at Anthropologie it is so classy.

The second item that I bought, that by the way, was totally worth it, was the Babyliss Miracurl. The Babybliss Miracurl is this curling tool with a big top and instead of you wrapping you hair around a wand or curling iron, you comb out a section of hair about 1″ and place it in the open top and as you close the tool the Miracurl sucks the strand in and curls it for you. You can change the curl direction from left to right. You can also change how long you hair is in the curling thing (for 8 s, 10 s, 12 s, or as many seconds as you want) and this will change the tightness of your curl when you you unclench the Miracurl. You can also change the heat setting from 350 degrees, 410 degrees, and 450 degrees. I have used the Miracurl a couple of times and for my straight, thick, and fine hair I would hold it for about 15 to 20 seconds in 450 heat to get really tight curls because my hair does not curl easily. I think the Babyliss Miracurl is better than the Conair version which is about $100 ( the Miracurl is $200 on nailpolishcanada.com) because you can choose the curl direction and heat temperature. Conair often has not the best products as well so I would tend to trust a Salon brand and not Conair even though Conair can be good sometimes. The first time we tried the

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Miracurl was at a beauty Store (my mom and I) and we were quite impressed. Once you become good at it, the Miracurl is faster than a curling iron and your curls are more alike and not all different sizes.

The last thing I bought was 2 white blouses and a little silky baseball jacket from Simon’s. They were each $19.99 and I didn’t figure I would find better deals this week for Black Friday. Simon’s is a great department store for a variety of items of different price range from cheap to very expensive. Everything goes on sale and the the store in Edmonton is huge. You can go to West Edmonton Mall where Simon’s is located and simply spend a shopping trip in Simon’s for Men’s clothing, Woman’s clothing, and homestyle items such as sheets and place mats. It is also simple to shop online at http://www.simons.ca, you can even use Paypal.

The next reason I am happy is football season in Canada is over. It was a disappointing season for my Edmonton Eskimos who never made it near the playoffs. I had to live with a Grey Cup between the Saskatchewan Roughriders (My Dad’s Team) and Hamilton Ti-Cats. In homage to Saskatchewan I am wearing Rider green eyeliner today, good job Rider’s! Now to hockey season. The Edmonton Oilers have won 3 games in a row and that’s great for them. I’m getting excited because if they keep winning their games such as they are we could have a competitive NHL team here. So Oilers please don’t disappoint me, football season was enough.

I am also happy just because my life is starting to have purpose again. I feel awake and alive. I feel full of possibilities. This editing certificate I am doing has really made me think that I can go farther in this business of writing than I thought I could. It can help me refine my writing and that’s what I need, to be able to see my mistakes and know how to correct them creatively. I am just so pleased to be doing school again after Christmas and than to finally finish and graduate from my Residential Design Certificate by taking Lighting in Spring semester at the U of A. I hope I have a little more energy then because I will have to go to the dreaded night classes at the U of A Extension building. So, I will have a busy time ahead of me as these courses overlap about a month and half, but I will try to have Editing 101 done before I start Lighting. As I end Lighting, I am thinking of taking a summer course. I have a few options I could start in May or June and wouldn’t have to be finished until August or September. I will see how it goes once I get to summer but generally, routine is a great idea for me because I know what I have to look forward to and can plan my days from there. The same as having a job, does for most people.

Also, the weather in Edmonton has been beautiful these past few days for November. I get to see my boyfriend and spend time with him for a week next week and I was invited to a good friend’s wedding next September that I am so happy for. The world is just looking up. Positive thoughts and a positive view on the Christmas season are vital, I am so excited to give out presents, spend time with my family, and take part in all our Christmas traditions. One month to go. Peace out for now.

 

Just A Little More Time


I would like a little more time please, just to figure my situation out. I would like you to stop asking questions about the state of my life. Because when I tell you how things are for me, I’m not sure that your listening to me. I’d say at least half the time you are off thinking about something or listening to something else. I know you can’t multitask but some of those conversations I had with you ( or with myself ) they were important to understanding me and how my life works.

Yes, I want to work. I want to work more than anything and more than most people who work actually do. But I can’t, that is not a privilege I have. So don’t tell me ” I don’t want to work! ” because if I could go to a job where I was content at and make it through the whole day, be able to concentrate on my work, and not become so fatigued I’m useless at my desk, I would be there. If I could be along side colleagues for 8 hours, making friends with some of the girls my age I work with I would, and If I could build a career and learn more, take school at night to understand my job better I would. But I was 23 years old the last day I was at work and I had a breakdown. Things had been wrong for awhile and I didn’t know I was having a psychotic episode and I didn’t know that that episode would change my life forever.

Why would I take a certificate in Residential Design after deciding in the end it is something I can’t do? Because it was 2009, I needed something to do and The Faculty of Extension at the U of A had a daytime course called Residential Design and it seemed interesting and I liked it. It was 3 hours a week and I could spend time in the other days of the week working on the projects and papers. I didn’t do the best work at first but I improved, the course was a way to measure my mental improvement. It was also related to commercial development, the type of company I worked for before I got sick. I kept taking courses in design in the day until I couldn’t, until the only courses I needed to take were at night. It was extremely hard for me to do night courses and I have one left. I decided I might as well get the certificate after taking 6 of 9 courses even though I knew I won’t really use the certificate. I don’t have the energy levels to be an interior decorator, nor if I’m honest the passion. It was more something I did for myself.

It was not a waste of money, education is never a waste of money and teaches you way more than just the subject your taking. Education helps you to think, to weigh decisions, to think practically and logically. Education is portable knowledge so don’t ever ask me why I am taking Residential Design, I will use it, just not the way you think.

Why am I doing practically nothing right now? Well you see, mental illness or physical illness that causes mental illness, whatever I have, is not black and white. Little things that you can no longer do due to your illness can have repercussions on the rest of your life. Doctors, medications, therapy, and healing (if it’s possible) all take time. Not to mention if you read any of my other recent blogs, you’ll understand I’ve been regressing this past year and my psychiatrist can no longer help me. I have spent the last 4.5 years trying to solve my illness with psychiatric medication and it helped a little. But I still have no energy and there’s a physical reason for that. So now I turn to my family doctor to help me find some hope of recovery physically. Do you know what it’s like to never wake up refreshed? To never not be fatigued? Do you know how it is to have to cut short most of your evenings, and I only get a few, because you can’t handle being out anymore, you’re just too tired? Do you know how hard it is to do just usual every day activities such as studying or house work? Do you know how hard it is not to be able to cardiovascular activity when you so desperately want to lose the weight you’ve put on through medication and inactivity?

You did not get these things yesterday. You were asking for the 3rd or 4th time. And some other things just to clarify: yes I can drive. But I gave that privilege up because paying attention, and the speed of the road was too much after I was sick. I had my license for 2 years and passed the test. Now it’s been about 4 years since I have driven and I can’t afford a car or insurance to drive my parent’s cars. Even if I could, they take their cars to work in the day when I possibly could drive.

Yes, I can cook. It may be only a few dishes but I can do those dishes well. My own diet is pretty simple and cooking foods together often seems to make them fattier so cook simply. Also, worst of all, my Dexedrine wears off right around supper and I become useless from the withdrawal until about 7 pm or later.

Yes, I have money but I’m living off of about $1500 a month right now and that doesn’t go far. I try to save some money to see you and take cabs but it shouldn’t be such a big deal giving me rides sometimes and paying for things a little more since you make 4 times my wage. I realize you have more expenses but I have bills too. It’s not like I can do any better, I’m stuck with what I make. Plus, you know I’m trying to pay down debt and stay on budget. On the same note, when I have the money to contribute please let me. Let me pay for lunch, or buy you a small Christmas gift, it’s not that hard to let me give back.

I think that’s it. Do you understand now? Just give me more time, I can’t fix everything on my own or maybe even at all. Just like me for me right now. That’s all I ask.