Poem – Terzanelle – “For the Love of Pretty Shoes” #amwriting #shoes #poetry #dVerse


Thanks to Kim881 of Poet’s Pub #dVerse prompts for the prompt about fabulous shoes.  

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Credit: Pinterest.com from Etsy.com

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Ivory lace and pearl ribbon, pretty shoes I love, 

Flower of delicate lace on folded silk peep toes;

Jewels, silken straps, elegant wedge most beloved. 

Black lace, four-inch gold heels, length of legs to behold

Fluffiest white bed, a blue corsette, soles bright pink, 

Flower of delicate lace on folded silk peep toes. 

Burgundy patent red heels with red wine, wink! 

Malbec sliding down your throat, cheese, bread, chocolate! 

Fluffiest bed in blue corsette, soles bright pink. 

Glorious silver sparkling shimmer mocking

Until I wear them graceful on stilts, platforms slim. 

Malbec sliding down my throat cheese, bread, chocolate. 

Tall black boots, supple leather hugs my calves –winners!!

Knee-high boots prized, heels sturdy yet in winter slip, 

Until I wear them, graceful on stilts, platforms slim. 

Divine pieces of art, solve vexing mishaps, 

Ivory lace and pearl ribbon pretty shoes I love. 

Knee high boots prized, heels sturdy yet in winter slip;

Ivory lace and pearl ribbon pretty shoes I love. 

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©Mandibelle16. (2017) All Rights Reserved. 

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Photo Challenge: Poem – Alouette – “A Scare” #amwriting #poetry 


Thanks to MindLoveMisery’s Menagerie for hosting last week’s photo prompt:

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Credit: Natalie Deprina

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She’s only twelve, bright —

The only girl separate from,

Her brothers four.

Parents her adore,

Their last child, girl comes, 

For Mom she’s a sight.

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A surprise one spring;

Thought there’d be no more kids born.

They so much wanted,

Girl so undaunted;

By elder brothers‘ scorn.

Bird fluttering wings.

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She laughs so cheery,

Going about her day, she’s teased

By family with love. 

Animals adore, 

She’s the darling who pleases,

Makes life less dreary.

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Out feeding horses, 

Then, rides with such glee calling,

Her dogs following. 

Danger in shallows, 

Ocean so near, tumbles, falls;

Swims smart, resourceful!

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Into warm arms pulled,

Mom near lost her dear, her pearl.

Dad is so wrathful, 

She wasn’t thoughtful

And where were her brothers? She —

Was grounded some. 

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Didn’t think enough;

She’s safe, all is well, she’s hugged,

Held close by her Mom,

Told, “Be careful hon!”

You’d be missed, you’re much loved.

Mom again gives hug.

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She’s happy again. 

Learned she’s human, as others. 

Preteens can die too.

Better to ride through —

Ocean waves, with friends, brothers. 

So life it remains

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©Mandibelle16. (2016) All Rights Reserved. 

Poem: Free Verse – ” The Truth”


The following is a re-blog and re-edited version of an old poem I found:


pearl-in-clam
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The Truth is as a pearl,

polished and genuine,

Gleaming in the waters still.

Deep beneath where the —

Light dances and shimmies on the water’s surface.

It is something taken for granted, something I gave up.

It’s became this hole inside my heart burning, seething,

Twisted and warped beyond recognition.

An evil formed out of something so pure.

A repulsive ugliness which strangles me.


I want to give you that pearl let it gleam in the sun;

Let it adorn a jeweled neck, a sign of hope on a beauties breast.

But I lied and I took our security away,

I lashed myself tight to seaweed, strands of purple haze, watery worries —

They will be my grave, they will make you despise me.

For I am broken soul now and I cannot turn around.

I am set in my ways, though I wail and turn wane.

You are the light of a pearl, the soft flick of ashes, your lashes —

The soot of my pain, as I lie to you again.

The scent of those ashes, that burning acrid smell;

Reminds me of churches, of a place purer than pearls.

Where the air is so still I can hear my breath wrack,

Hear my heart beat, find forgiveness relief.

As I cry in my soul, it’s forgiven but torn.

While you pray to nothing, it separates us more.


I speak of a heart beat between you and me,

A quiet place we rest, but you make me cry in pain.

Wound me, complete me, and I bite my tongue

As my wry wit replies, to the pain on my peaches and cream,

The  bruises the aches in my legs, to find no peace.

In that, there is nothing but the trapping of my lies,

The seaweed grief come to strangle my reprieve.

A word of love, taken back, a thought, perhaps, I care little.

But when I am skin to skin and feel,

As close as to anyone that I’ve ever been,

When I would give to you what I’d give to no one else,

You turn your back, you leash me, stop my attempts to train,

So I swirl in and out of this complicated romance, the jumper in the whirlpool.

The one plashless, hopeless because she cannot take back time,

Thinks you and the pearl that glimmers in her eye, would have never been,

Had she not minced words and told you:

“I feel nothing — leave me be;

I enjoy the closeness but you are no shiny pearl of truth.”


I see the future unravel, unruly, uninvited coming near,

Ending because you refuse to believe,

In the significance of ashes and churches.

Because I refuse to live in the world,

The woman with a pearl around her neck.

It’s chocking me, the truth, it slides,

A warm gold chain that clasps the pearl in place,

Tightens the pearl around me neck,

Until lost breath is imminent.

When will I say them, those impending words?

When will I say it I cannot trust you,

I cannot tell the truth,

You choose to do works when faith is needed.

You hurt me, and care little to understand me,

My lips seal the words, close them in a box, turn the key;

Pandora’s box ready to unleash this pearl of wisdom,

Perhaps, wise words, but there are no wise-men here.


©Mandibelle16. (2016) All Rights Reserved.

Poem: Free Verse – “A Scream” #amwriting #scream #horror #poetry


I have been watching this Scream series, done by Netflix, loosely based on the Scream horror films from when I was a teenager. The show is pretty decent. It has interesting characters with more depth because you can do that with episodes as opposed to movies. As well, the creators are able to string the plot out, giving the episodes more meat that way. It remains a typical teen horror genre show, as the movies were, but I enjoy it. Maybe it’s nastelgia, or maybe it’s knowing most of the main characters are going to get killed off. But exactly how? And when? 

The poem below is loosely based off of the Netflix series.

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Life’s a scream,You may not find much, you can redeem.
When life’s a scream,

The parties, drinking, people becoming obscene.

And life’s a scream,

You may not find, the pearl in the center of your dreams.

Life’s a scream, 

But I find this horror genre a has been,

Life’s a scream,

In the day, the conversation ebbs and sways; I lean,

On sidewalk cracks and think, life’s a scream,

Unless you’re out of your mind trying not to bleed.

A wound from your soul; life’s a scream,

When were caught in-between, the middle and the end scene.

Yes, life’s a scream,

The killer lurking, ending all our dreams.

But people keep on saying, ” Life’s a scream.”

Yet, it’s only madness; ripped out seams;

Here’s to everything; life’s a scream,

In the end, a dark blank screen. 

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©Mandibelle16.(2016) All Rights Reserved.

Poem: Quatrains – “Fight and Fly”


Thanks to The Daily Post for the word prompt fight.

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Flying Birds
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Troubled pearl, thoughts awhirl,

Spinning fast, life makes you hurl,

Never stops, never just right.

Make your own moments, win that fight.

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Sifting sands go through my hands.

Spheres off beaches, white grande.

Dreams of blue water, clear and dense,

Without sharks, that makes sense.

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Sharks of land so much sicker,

Make a woman fear as life flickers,

Red red roses, blood dripping down,

Trickling lifelessness without a sound,

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Daggers thrust in open hearts,

No one goes far, not able to start.

Words of fear and words said in haste,

Looks like living, isn’t chaste.

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Tricked clever, by events out of control,

Lessons learned from life’s list of roles.

Talking quietly, whispering secrets;

Who needs those words — awful secrets.

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Blazing eyes go forth and vent,

Tell me the way to happiness, invent —

New ways to find strength, and flight

Don’t you know the best way, fight.

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Hidden hands, bowed in prayer,

Why is life so utterly tinged, `beware,`

Go the way angels do, dive in blue skys,

Flutter with purpose, learn to fly.

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©Mandibelle16. All Rights Reserved.

March 2016 Makeup Beauty Haul


Hey, I have some new makeup products (new to me) to share with you today for an early March 2016 Makeup Beauty Haul. I hope you enjoy the piece and maybe even find you take a look at some of these products when you’re at the Drugstore/Sephora/ or shopping for makeup online. The first couple products I have to share with you are from a brand called Smashbox.

March-Smash Box Under Eye Primer
Smashbox Photo Finish Hydrating Under Eye Primer (www.sephora.ca)

1. Smashbox Photo Finish Hydrating Under Eye Primer – (www.sephora.ca) – $32.00 Canadian.

I have found Smashbox products to be ‘touch and go’ for me. Smashbox was one of the first makeup brands to come out with a face primer to make your make up last longer. A facial primer is vital if you are a woman whose makeup melts off all the time by 5:00 pm or you want your makeup to last all night long. If you are trying to smooth out imperfections on your face (such as pores and blemishes) before putting onfoundation or BB Cream, face primer is also useful. Although, Smashbox primers feel nice on my skin, I hated wearing the original Smashbox face primer  more than a day because my skin would break out due to the oiliness of the face primer. Despite the fact the makeup counter lady who recommended it to me, said it would help makeup stop melting off my then oiler skin. Smashbox has improved on their original face primer. You can find Photo Finish primer in Primer Light, Colour Correcting Foundation Primer, Hydrating Foundation Primer,  More than Primer Blemish Control, and Oil Free Foundation Primer Pore Minimizer. I have tried most of them in a samples kit except the last one which would probably be the best one for my skin type. Nonetheless, I wasn’t impressed with any of the other face primers in this brand. Most of them cost around $50.00 in their biggest size. As a side note, I much prefer a primer that I use from Benefit. I use POREfessional face primer. It smooths out and fills in your face creating an ideal base for makeup and is light enough that it doesn’t make a person with oily or combination skin break out, even in the heat of Las Vegas. Even though I’m not a fan of Smashbox’s face primers, I have found that the Hydrating Under Eye Primer by Smashbox, works wonders.

Photo Finish Hydrating Under Eye Primer is amazing. I love this product because it is a light product you apply under your eyes and it hydrates that delicate skin, and it also acts as a fantastic under eye primer. I find this product useful because as I’ve complained before, my mascara, eyeliner, eyeshadow –you name it — comes off my eyes, even when I wear waterproof eye makeup, because the skin around my eyes is oily. This Smashbox under eye primer stops these other products I’m wearing on my eyes from travelling all over the place under my eyes so I don’t look a raccoon by the end of the day. As well, the concealer I apply under my eyes stays put when I use this primer underneath. My dark circles stayed covered so I’m a happy woman.

This under eye primer by Smashbox  I like and would recommend it to you if you want an eye-cream and under eye-primer in one tube to keep your eye makeup and concealer in place day or night. A bit of this product goes a long way. I have a tiny 0.17 fl. oz. tube of it and it has lasted me longer than a year and I use it every morning.

2.Smashbox Full Exposure Waterproof Mascara – (www.beautyboutique.ca) -$25.00 Canadian.

I decided to try Smashbox Full Exposure Waterproof Mascara on a whim. I had to spend a

March- Smashbox Full Exposure Waterproof Mascara
Smashbox Full Exposure Waterproof Mascara (www.beautyboutique.ca)

certain amount of money to use my Optimum Points over Christmas and I wanted to use them instead of paying cash, so I quickly chose this mascara. I’m always on the eternal search for the best waterproof volumizing mascara. Although, I an fond of the Dior Black Out Mascara I was using before, I disliked how it smudged around my eye area. The colour was vivid  black  which I adored. Smashbox’s Full Exposure Waterproof Mascara is nothing special, it is comparable to many mascara’s in the $25 to $35.00 price range. I better buy would be a Clinique Volumizing mascara which is a few dollars cheaper and still waterproof. Mascara ends up around my eye area a bit, with this mascara but I am easily able to clean it up with a Q-tip. I use it over a non-waterproof mascara that I love called Hello Lashes by IT cosmetics. It has the perfect mascara want to reach all your tiny lashes and it is a 5 in 1, clinically proven mascara that has made my eyelashes licker. To me, the Full Exposure mascara is merely a second coat of mascara that works so the mascara I wear underneath, will stay on my lashes and become waterproof.

Additionally, I have tried this Smashbox mascara alone and it’s not bad but not great either. My lashes look decent, longer, volumized, and the brush is nice and thick. But I’m not so thrilled about Full Exposurr mascara. The product didn’t capture me. The $9.00 L’Oreal mascara I use sometimes, would do the job just as well to make my favourite IT cosmetics mascara waterproof, and as mascara on it’s own.  If you purchase Full Exposure, you won’t hate it, but I don’t think you’d love it either because it’s not worth $25.00. Luckily, I paid in Optimum points.  I couldn’t find this mascara on the Sephora website. I only found the same kind in the non-waterproof product. You will have to look at Ulta in the states if you still want to truth is mascara after my so-so review of it.

3.Stila Stay All Day Waterproof Liquid Eyeliner in Intense Black – (www.beautyboutique.ca) – $29.00 Canadian 

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Stila All Day Waterproof Liquid Eyeliner, Intense Black (www.beautyboutique.ca)

This waterproof eyeliner by Stila was also an Optimum points purchase made this month at Shoppers Drug Mart. I was so disappointed because Lancôme changed their Liquid Artliner formula and I have been using it for six-faithful-years. The  Artliner product Lancome made to replace my old favourite with is see-through, the brush doesn’t pick any sign of black liner and the colour I picked was noir. Also, the new Artliner took forever to dry on my lash line.

I went into Shopper’s Drug Mart searching for a new eyeliner. I was looking at some Quo liquid liners trying decide if I wanted a thicker or thinner eyeliner line, when the lady at the makeup counter said: “Here, try the Stila Black Liquid Eyeliner, it’s a customer favourite.” I was not going to buy another Stila liner because I tried Stila’s old Liquid liner that was in the form of a felt tip liquid liner and I wasn’t happy. The black liner wasn’t black enough and the liquid inside the tube wasn’t liquidy enough for a liquid eyeliner to form a line at the lash line well. The makeup lady showed me on my hand the boldness of this black liner and how much better it worked than Stila’s first eyeliner offering. She was one-hundred-percent -right. The new Stila All Day Waterproof Liquid Eyeliner in Intense Black is amazing. I can make a thick or a thin line with the felt tip. The liner stays on and doesn’t smudge off, but at the same time it is easy enough to make a correction with a little bit of concealer on a Q-tip, to straighten your line or make it thinner for example. I’m glad I used my points on this product, it is super. And the makeup lady at Shoppers Drug Mart said the liquid liner would last around five or six-months which is longer than my old liner lasted me and at a cheaper price point. Beauty Boutique has about seven colours online of Stila waterproof liquid liners, including black. I’m not sure if the other colours are as vibrant, but I’d be willing to try them based on my experience with the Intense Black liner.

3. Benefit Longwear Powder Shadow in Call My Bluff – (www.beautyboutique.ca) – ($26.00) 

I bought this colour of shadow around a year and a half ago for a particular reason. Every

March -Benefit Longwear Powder Shadow in Call My Bluff
Benefit Longwear Powder Shadow in Call my Bluff (www.beautyboutique.ca)

once and awhile, I purchase an eyeshadow pallete. I like to use browns a great deal because they causr blue eyes to pop. The problem is with whatever brand of palette I buy, it would only have one light-skin coloured eye shadow in the palette a woman could use as a base or highlighter colour (depending on your skin tone).

I only use darker colours (especially browns) to darken my crease, make my lid a bit darker, and/or on a night out, when I might dip into blackish brown or dark-purplish shadows for some depth and/or s smokey eye.

My point is, there is never enough base colour when you wear brown eyeshadows ot buy brown eye shadow palettes. This Call my Bluff colour is the perfect colour to use when you have gone through that one light colour in the palette you used for a base colour or highlight. Benefit eyeshadow has excellent pigment. The eyeshadow lasts a long time, and you will get your money’s worth because you can use this shadow with any palettes you purchase that no longer have that light -skin coloured hue of eye shadow — whether the palette contains, more Browns, purples, or pinks which  appear to be in this Spring. There are also other colours available in Thr Long Wear Shadow, if you prefer individual eye shadows to palettes for a great eye shadow look. Benefit has about ten colours available in this eye shadow line on the Beauty Boutique website.

4. Revlon Super Lustrous Lipstick in Pink Pout 002 Matte and in Silver City Pink 405 Pearle – (www.ulta.com) – $7.99 US

Revlon - Silver City Pink
Revlon Super Lustrous Lipstick – Silver City Pink (405) Pearl (www.ulta.com)

I also bought these lipsticks with Optimum points at Shopper’s Drug Mart after Christmas. I was looking for some everyday lipstick colours, near my natural lip colour that didn’t come off easily. I thought originally that higher-end makeup brands such as NARS or Two Faced would meet the requirement: that the lipstick needs to stay on your lips as long as possible, but even though I love the colours I bought from those two brands they hardly stay on my lips more than a couple of hours. I knew Revlon had good lipstick because I used their lipstick in high school. I have never been big into lipstick, until a bit lately. I think I have maybe five or six all together but these two shades from Revlon are beautiful and they stay on your lips without wearing off quickly. Since my lips have a blue undertone, the colour Pink-Pout is almost exactly the same as my lip colour it is only matte and a bit more purply. It is my favourite shade because it goes with everything.

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Revlon Lustrous Lipstick – Pink Pout (002) Matte (www.revlon.ca)

The second colour I picked up was Silver City Pink and it is a lighter pink and is shimmery with a Pearl finish. It is great lipstick for in the day and also when I want a lip that is pink but a bit more glitzy. So far I have found the best lipstick is cheap. I don’t know about Dior or Chanel lipstick. One day, I might try one of their lipsticks Maybe it stays on even better, but I’m not huge into lipsticks in makeup. I would prefer to spend more money on other products which are worth buying to make your skin, healthy, and young looking. Plus, I hate having to reapply lipstick all the time. So look at Ulta or in your local drugstore for Revlon Super Lustrous Lipsticks.

Thanks for taking the time to read about these products I’ve tried. Hopefully, you’ll take a look at them if not purchase one or two of them yourself next time you need a few beauty items.

11. How Was Last Night For You: Talise at the Farmer’s Market


Read Chapter 10 here.

Chapter 11: Talise at The Farmer’s Market

Nina was delighted to have John take her to the farmer’s market. She enjoyed the atmosphere of the popular market which provided farm-grown produce, baked goods, prepared foods, as well as handmade speciality goods. A modest-sized warehouse with murals of oceanic scenes, was home for the market during the Winter months in Adare. In the late spring, the market moved outdoors so people could bask in the sunshine as they shopped.

The quick drive downtown, however, was silent. Nina was busy worrying about Rianne and her broken arm as well as her  confrontation with Talise. John was distant and brooding as he drove his Mercedes and parked a few blocks away from the market.

The aroma of fresh produce, sweet and inviting, met Nina as she walked into the crowded warehouse. The smell of fresh bread made both Nina and John inhale and smile at each other. Nina shoved her worries to the back of her mind. She immediately began talking to some of the merchants she knew, tugging John’s hands. Nina went to a few different tables she knew would be promising to find the best price for some vegetables. At different tables Nina bought an array of lush organic vegetables.

She was drawn to a table which sold spice blends called Cumin and See.  The company had spice mixtures, seasonings, and recipes for food. Nina purchased their special Caesar salad spice, a sweet cinnamony spice for apple cider, and a mixture of spices for a warm cheesy dip which would taste superb with crackers or chips. Nina wasn’t only buying for supper, she was thinking some down time would be a good idea soon.

Nina browsed along the tables where handcrafted jewelry was displayed. She gently held a fine 14k gold chain with a lustrous pearl and a tiny charm that read ‘beloved.’ John noticed Nina eyeing the necklace before she reached out and ran her finger over the pearl pendant and charm. John smiled at the cheerful merchant selling homemade jewelry at her booth and asked the lady how much for the necklace Nina was admiring.

” Oh don’t, it’s fine John. It’s $229.00 for this little chain. It’s not worth it.” Nina whispered to John.

“But you love it, right?” John said.”You’re worth it to me.”

Nina blushed at John’s praise and nodded her head. She did love the necklace,  it was classic. John ran his hand through Nina’s soft hair playfully before paying for the necklace with a swipe of his Visa. John carefully opened the fine necklace and clasped it around Nina’s neck. She loved the necklace and John’s gesture of buying her something. Nina adored that gesture a great deal.

“Thank you John,” Nina said sincerely, leaning up to kiss John on the lips.”Pay you back with some dessert sometime.” The kiss deepened and some people were openly gawking.

John smirked at Nina, aware he’d put on a show and held Nina’s hand as she went to a table that offered baked goods and bought an aromatic delicious apple pie for dinner. ” I love apple pie” John murmured to Nina, “Apple pie is more then enough in exchange for the necklace. Not that you had to get me anything.”They shared a warm companionable and heated gaze before Nina was distracted by more goods being sold.

Nina let go of John’s hand and went to browse among the tables of items.  She wasn’t often able to make it to the market in the winter time; work often meant overtime. Nina browsed aware John was worried some awful event might happen if they remained at the market long.

John had been looking at some homemade red wine, drinking a coffee when Nina last saw him. But when she turned around, John had disappeared into the crowd. Nina wasn’t too worried. John had his Samsung on him and she had her Iphone. The market wasn’t huge and it wouldn’t be impossible for Nina to find John in ten minutes or so while she shopped. Nina’s eyes immediately admired a baby pink scarf made of silk and light as air, hanging on rack of scarves beside a table.

A carefully manicured hand with sea green nail polish touched the delicate pink scarf and held it up so Nina could see how delicate and pretty the scarf was. Nina didn’t look up at the vendor because she was memorized by the way light hit the scarf. John could have bought her this scarf she thought, but she truly loved the gold necklace. She would purchase the scarf herself, Nina decided.

” Do you like it?” a girly voice asked Nina. Nina was to busy admiring the scarf, but then the voice said: “This would look wonderful on you Nina. It is exactly the right color of pink for your skin.” Nina knew the woman’s voice. She looked up to see Talise in a floaty silk blue blouse and leggings, behind the table.

“Oh” Nina said, “Talise, I didn’t know you had a booth here. Your scarves are gorgeous.” Talise smiled.

“It’s my friends booth. She’s the artist. I’m only filling in for her today. But she did tell me I could have any scarf of my choice. I would like for you to have my scarf. Take the light pink scarf Nina it suits you.” Nina was surprised, touched, and a suspicious of Talise’s gift. But she didn’t want to appear ungracious, even though she loved the pink scarf. She wrapped the silk perfection around her neck.

” That’s nice of you Talise. I didn’t think we were off to a friendly start at the fundraiser. You were judgemental of John and his past. How’s Malcolm?”

“Oh, he’s fine. He’s watching the Broncos play football,  while I do this. He loves sports. As for John, I’m only concerned about your safety with John, Nina. I don’t think he’s a reputable guy from my own experiences. For some reason, I always felt accidents and bad things occurred around John. Maybe, I’m only imagining these events, but I think you can do better than John.”

“It wasn’t your friend who John and his brothers laughed at when you said your friend loved  John, was it?  It was you?” Nina asked Talise in a flash of realization. Talise’s jewel green eyes shed a tear and then went blank.

“Yes, it was me,” she said. “I loved him and he talked about me behind my back. I wasn’t valuable to him. It was onto the next girl with John.”

Nina let her breath out nervously stroking the soft silk scarf Talise had given her. She felt wrong accepting the scarf now. Nina felt as if by wearing it she somehow agreed with Talise’s opinion of John now, that he was still a womanizer and a selfish man.

Nina felt she couldn’t give the scarf back to Talise, because she didn’t want to have a confrontation with her. She clutched the necklace John had bought her, hidden under the scarf. The necklace gave her hope and courage to defend John once again.

Please Read Chapter 12 here.


©Mandibelle16.(2016) All Rights Reserved.

 

Grandfather, do you know?


Grandfather, your pearl is tarnished, crystallized and shattered.
Do you hear her heart beating, the wings of doves fluttering gone soft.
Her heart is the beat of a techno dance song – hard staccato rhythm to drum with the throngs.
Grandfather, the things they’ve come out with in this world.
Maybe your heart would still be thrumming, but you were ready to go home.
There’s technology so thin and advanced, books we read without feeling the weight of rough paper.
The special effects in movies are more real, and the stories so enthralling.
But I don’t know if the stories compare to Clarence Day’s or Harper Lee’s novels.
I don’t know if there’s a Paul Newman or Audrey Hepburn hiding in the cinema today.
But Grandfather, I know you would say, the more things change, the more they stay the same.
There’s nothing new under Heaven and people make the same mistakes.
In Iraq, in Syria, in Afghanistan — so many places enraptured in war again.
And you’d be in shock just to hear that they want to take God out of ‘ Oh Canada.’

Grandfather, this world is still in ruin like the morning you left it.
And Grandpa I’m in ruin, it’s best for you to know.
Your eldest Grandchild an adult several years became ill, and she’s still fighting a sickness she’ll never win.
Medicine is slow, and the ache of a long tired wretched day felt all the more keenly under illness and you would know.
Grandfather, I guess, you don’t feel a thing.
Because down here we feel pain and up there, there is no such word or feeling.
It’s quite a concept just not to know suffering as innocent as Frost’s lamb.
Knowledge came at such a price Grandpa, Eve and Adam, had little clue what they unleashed upon a world.
All this for an apple or a pomegranate.
Juice pouring down our faces as we each share in the deed.
Spitting seeds out as we munch, the greatest flavour, for a wily wretched bunch.

Grandfather, do you hear my prayers, or do they only ascend to God?
Because I talk to you quite often and wonder if you know us down here?
Is there such a thing as memory in Heaven, or will you not know me until you see me on your plane of existence?
Do you remember tractor rides, gardens, apples, raspberries, hot summer sun, and VBS.
Do you think of left over wedding mints, a pulpit, a large pipe organ, all your sisters and brothers, do you remember where the good goes?
We’re looking for it down here, and I wonder if you could spare us just a little to melt away the density of snow the crowds around our hearts when it’s blowing, snowing, cold?
What do you see when you look down here or do you only experience the present?

Do you know how pearls catch the light in glory, and crack under pressure?
Have you seen those who have come and gone, and forgotten those who have fallen?
What have you seen in your gaze, do you see beyond the eternal realm, touch the sun and stars and everything that ever was, do you know the answer?
We flounder in existence, do you remember you did too, and still another winter comes and I cannot see any wisdom past the ground I walk on.
Grandfather, what you see someday I may know, but now I’m barely energized and wishing hard for sleep.
I cannot find a moment to rest, I wonder if I truly slumber, and I wonder about eternity, a time when time becomes timeless.

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Benefit Cosmetics: Stay Flawless 15 Hour Primer, Girl Meets Pearl Hilighter, and They’re Real Mascara.


Hey everyone! If you’re interested, I have 3 new makeup products to blog about today from Benefit Cosmetics. Not only is the packaging funky and lovely but for the most part, the products are pretty awesome too. In the past few month I have tried 3 of their products including the Stay Flawless 15 hour Primer, Girl Meets Pearl Hilighter, and They’re Real Mascara which I’m told is the #1 favorite mascara of many women.

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1. Stay Flawless- 15 hour Primer – ($38.00) – What is great about this primer compared to some other primers is it doesn’t make your skin break out with continuous use and it blends directly with your liquid makeup. So, after you clean your face in the morning and put on your moisturizer let that all sink into your skin then apply the primer. It’s in stick form and you rub the stick over your face and the light and waxy stick glides across your skin. Then you put on your liquid foundation with your fingers or a foundation brush and the primer blends with your foundation so your makeup stays in place. It feels nice on your skin and the slight waxy feeling of the product goes away as soon as it mixes with your foundation. You need to use this makeup primer with liquid foundation because if you use liquid to powder makeup the primer and liquid to powder foundation balls up. I found this out after my mom tried the primer first with her makeup. But for me using a Clinique liquid foundation the primer works great. Not to mention, some primers such as the Light Smashbox primer would cause my skin to break out after one use and Stay Flawless, literally, keeps your skin flawless day after day from breakouts. According to a consumer poll, according to Sephora, 94 % of women said their foundation stayed on better after use of Stay Flawless, 97 % saw an improvement in the look and feel of their skin, and 94 % said it increased foundation coverage. This product is excellent.

2. Girl Meets Pearl Hilighter – ($34.00) – I bought this product a couple of weeks ago and I think I was looking for a bit more of a

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stick hilighter such as the primer but I thought the pinky pearly color of Girl Meets Pearl sounded nice. It gives you a “youthful dewy glow” and “pearlessence.” It also contains moisturizing sesame seed oil and raspberry, chamomile, and sweet almond extract to improve skin “firmness and smoothness.” To apply this product that looks somewhat the color of the foundation I use – light and pinky, You turn the bottom of the container and take a makeup brush ( foundation or concealer brush) and apply the hilighter from the holes in the top piece of the container to the areas of your face. I would usually hilight areas such as my nose, the middle of my forehead, above my eyebrows, the middle of my chin, and tops of my cheeks. The product spreads so nicely, is so light, and is fantastic looking and shimmery in any kind of light.

The only problem I have is the very fact that for me, the hilighter is a bit too close to my skin color and the color of my foundation, which has a dewy look to begin with. So if you are fair this may not be the hilighter for you, you may require something even pearlier and whiter. But overall, for any woman with a bit darker skin, it’s a good product.

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3. They’re Real Mascara – ($29.00)  – I was excited to try this product because I had heard so much about it. It gave me great big voluminized lashes and I had to be careful not to apply too much mascara because I have long lashes. The brush that is a rubbery short- bristly brush is actually great despite my reluctance to use it at first. It is great for applying this awesome mascara and giving any girl great big eyes.

But I had a problem with this mascara. You see, underneath my eyes is oily and if you have this same problem then the mascara from your lower lashes will go right underneath your eyes and give you major raccoon eyes and you don’t even have to try very hard to get them. When you try to wipe this mascara off your under eye skin, it wipes away but there is so much pigment in the mascara that it doesn’t come off easily. In fact, it tends to smear all over and require plenty of makeup remover to take it off. But you can’t do that all day so I think a better mascara for me might be a waterproof mascara by Benefit or any other mascara brand. But overall,  the biggest thing I did not like about this mascara was how pigmented it was coming off onto your skin or trying to take it off with makeup remover.  It took a lot of makeup remover or a couple of makeup remover cloths to remove this mascara. So as a mascara it doesn’t quite live up to it’s hype even though it creates wonder volume on your upper lashes.

Thanks for reading!

The Truth: Poetry


Here is another try at some poetry, hope you like!

The Truth

The Truth is like a pearl,
polished and genuine,
gleaming in the waters still.
Deep beneath where the
light dances and shimmies the waters surface.
It is something taken for granted, something I gave up.
It became this hole inside my heart burning, seething,
twisted and warped beyond recognition.
An evil formed out of something so pure.
A repulsive ugliness that strangles me.

I want to give you that pearl let it gleam in the sun;
Let it adorn a jewelled neck, a sign of hope on a beauties breast.
But I lied and I took our security away, I lashed myself tight to
seaweed strands of purple haze, watery worries.
They will be my grave, they will make you despise me.
For I am a broken soul now and I cannot turn around.
I am set in my ways, though I wail and turn wane.
You are the light of a pearl, the soft flick of ashes, your lashes
The soot of my pain, as I lie to you again, yes I came…

The scent of those ashes, that burning acrid smell,
reminds me of churches, of a place purer than pearls.
Where the air is so still I can hear my breath wrack,
hear my heart beat, find forgiveness relief.
As I cry in my soul, it’s forgiven but torn.
While you pray to Mecca it separates us more.
I speak of a heart beat between you and me.
A quiet place we rest, but you make me ache in pain.
Wound me, complete me, and I bite my tongue as my wry wit replies,
to the pain on my peaches and cream, the bruises the aches in my legs.
To find no relief, in that there is nothing but the trapping of my lies,
the seaweed grief come to strangle my reprieve.
A word of love, taken back, a thought perhaps I care to much.
But when I am skin to skin and feel as close as to anyone that I’ve ever been,
when I would give to you what I’d give to no one else, you turn your back.
You leash me, stop my attempts to train you that way.

So I swirl in and out of this complicated romance, the jumper in the whirlpool.
The one plashless, hopeless because she cannot take back time and thinks
you and the pearl that glimmers in her eye, would have never been,
had she not minced words and told you, I feel nothing, this hurts.
I enjoy the closeness but you are no shiny glimmering pearl of truth yourself.
And I see the future unravel, unruly, uninvited coming near,
ending because you refuse to believe in the significance of ashes and churches.
Because I refuse to live in the world the woman with pearl around her neck.
It’s chocking me, the truth, it slides, a warm gold chain that clasps the pearl in place,
tightens the pearl around me neck until lost breath is imminent.
When will I say it those impending words?
When will I say it I cannot trust you!?
I cannot tell the truth,
You choose to do works when faith is needed.
You hurt me, and care little to understand my body, to explore.
My lips seal the words, close them in a box, turn the key,
Pandora’s box ready to unleash a pearl of wisdom.
Wise words, there are no wisemen here.

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