If any of you are Our Lady Peace fans you will know that I changed the title of one of their CD’s for my blog title. There title was Happiness is Not a Fish That You Can Catch but when I picture this title I think of happiness as being something that is very elusive just like a gold-fish slipping through your cupped hands again and again as you try to catch it. But sometimes, if your lucky and you are looking at the world just right, Happiness is A Fish that You Can Catch because you see, that little gold-fish is already caught in your fish bowl or pond. The way one looks at the world has a lot of precedence in how things can appear. Then again, you might just be lucky and see the world in a unique light somedays, such as seeing the world in the glow of happiness.
What have I got to be so happy about, well I can’t explain it exactly. Everything just seems to be finally working out and going well. I’m not sure why but I think these times that make us content help us make it through the hard times. Something that has made me very happy is the ability to sleep well. I went to my Sleep Doctor and he gave me a drug that is used to help epilepsy patients sleep deep and not have episodes in their sleep. A large effect of this drug is that it can make you really drowsy. The side effects are what I’m using the drug for because I have gone from using over 20, 5 mg melatonin to a couple of these new pills and 6 melatonin. I sleep so deeply and wake up feeling extremely refreshed, something that has eluded me for a long time. So, I’m excited to wake up and feel energetic, at least for a little while. I also am (maybe not rightly so) elated that my sleep doctor is in agreement with my psychiatrist that something else is going on with my health that isn’t psychiatric. When I first had the psychotic episode and became depressed this was not caused by something psychiatric it was caused by the unknown factor, let’s call it x. I am waiting now this week to hopefully see my family doctor and I have hope that what I am experiencing (x) is something that can be changed because it is physical in nature. Maybe it is naïve for me to think this but it is the most hopeful I have felt about my health in a long time.
Secondly, I have been able to shop a ton lately. I know this isn’t such a great or unique thing for a lot of people. But I’ve been on a budget and had to cut back on my spending, especially on clothing and things I would just like to have. Sometimes affording the things I needed has been tough. But I saved up for Christmas, had some money left from a dress I’d saved up for and returned to Anthropologie, and had a gift card from Anthropologie because they accidentally sent me 2 extra dresses after I returned the first, so I was able to shop to my heart’s content. And although I appreciated buying some items for myself, what I loved the most was shopping for and finishing my shopping for my family and friends down to the mandetory chocolates. I did most of my shopping online and I think that was a good idea because it would have exhausted me getting all that I needed to buy in two or three long trips to the mall ( except for wrapping paper, gift bags, and chocolate). I think everyone will like their gifts and I’m excited for them to arrive in the mail so I can wrap everything up and put my presents together.
Not to mention, I carefully chose a couple of items for myself that I will show you here. The first thing I bought was a slip from Anthropologie. It is beautiful and fits like a dream. It is very elegant and the cream is white enough that it looks good on my pale skin. I love the lingerie at Anthropologie it is so classy.
The second item that I bought, that by the way, was totally worth it, was the Babyliss Miracurl. The Babybliss Miracurl is this curling tool with a big top and instead of you wrapping you hair around a wand or curling iron, you comb out a section of hair about 1″ and place it in the open top and as you close the tool the Miracurl sucks the strand in and curls it for you. You can change the curl direction from left to right. You can also change how long you hair is in the curling thing (for 8 s, 10 s, 12 s, or as many seconds as you want) and this will change the tightness of your curl when you you unclench the Miracurl. You can also change the heat setting from 350 degrees, 410 degrees, and 450 degrees. I have used the Miracurl a couple of times and for my straight, thick, and fine hair I would hold it for about 15 to 20 seconds in 450 heat to get really tight curls because my hair does not curl easily. I think the Babyliss Miracurl is better than the Conair version which is about $100 ( the Miracurl is $200 on nailpolishcanada.com) because you can choose the curl direction and heat temperature. Conair often has not the best products as well so I would tend to trust a Salon brand and not Conair even though Conair can be good sometimes. The first time we tried the
Miracurl was at a beauty Store (my mom and I) and we were quite impressed. Once you become good at it, the Miracurl is faster than a curling iron and your curls are more alike and not all different sizes.
The last thing I bought was 2 white blouses and a little silky baseball jacket from Simon’s. They were each $19.99 and I didn’t figure I would find better deals this week for Black Friday. Simon’s is a great department store for a variety of items of different price range from cheap to very expensive. Everything goes on sale and the the store in Edmonton is huge. You can go to West Edmonton Mall where Simon’s is located and simply spend a shopping trip in Simon’s for Men’s clothing, Woman’s clothing, and homestyle items such as sheets and place mats. It is also simple to shop online at http://www.simons.ca, you can even use Paypal.
The next reason I am happy is football season in Canada is over. It was a disappointing season for my Edmonton Eskimos who never made it near the playoffs. I had to live with a Grey Cup between the Saskatchewan Roughriders (My Dad’s Team) and Hamilton Ti-Cats. In homage to Saskatchewan I am wearing Rider green eyeliner today, good job Rider’s! Now to hockey season. The Edmonton Oilers have won 3 games in a row and that’s great for them. I’m getting excited because if they keep winning their games such as they are we could have a competitive NHL team here. So Oilers please don’t disappoint me, football season was enough.
I am also happy just because my life is starting to have purpose again. I feel awake and alive. I feel full of possibilities. This editing certificate I am doing has really made me think that I can go farther in this business of writing than I thought I could. It can help me refine my writing and that’s what I need, to be able to see my mistakes and know how to correct them creatively. I am just so pleased to be doing school again after Christmas and than to finally finish and graduate from my Residential Design Certificate by taking Lighting in Spring semester at the U of A. I hope I have a little more energy then because I will have to go to the dreaded night classes at the U of A Extension building. So, I will have a busy time ahead of me as these courses overlap about a month and half, but I will try to have Editing 101 done before I start Lighting. As I end Lighting, I am thinking of taking a summer course. I have a few options I could start in May or June and wouldn’t have to be finished until August or September. I will see how it goes once I get to summer but generally, routine is a great idea for me because I know what I have to look forward to and can plan my days from there. The same as having a job, does for most people.
Also, the weather in Edmonton has been beautiful these past few days for November. I get to see my boyfriend and spend time with him for a week next week and I was invited to a good friend’s wedding next September that I am so happy for. The world is just looking up. Positive thoughts and a positive view on the Christmas season are vital, I am so excited to give out presents, spend time with my family, and take part in all our Christmas traditions. One month to go. Peace out for now.