What’s a life changing event to you? When did it happen? Was it a big event or kind of small? Life changing events are all around us. They force us to change direction and pick another way. They effect us so subtlety we never even knew that they happened.
I feel like I’m heading into some life changing events and I’m not sure if that’s good or bad. All I know are they are changes that presented themselves to me and I have made a choice for better or worse. They could be painful changes. They could be great changes. They could be changes I don’t feel all that much. But either way I know I’m moving into that unknown space. An area I have scarce been before. I’m hoping their self affirming changes. I’m hoping they’re confidence boosters. I’m hoping my change from the normal doesn’t get me into to much trouble. But I also agree with the statement ” if you’re not happy with your life, change something.” So I am changing something. I’m headed of into the distant future into the ” silver waters of the estuary.” I could sink or swim. I could get hurt. I could survive a changed woman and be alright or fantastic.
But a little plot twist in life was just what the doctor ordered. A little sideline to the hum drum of this everyday life of being tired. But it gets better, there are several plot twists about. And all one can hope is that all these twists work themselves out in the end for a better tomorrow.
Today I am wondering about the future.There a lot of things I am planning for but everyone knows we cannot tell the future and things work out how they do. We may wish for our lives to take a certain path but the best paths are often the paths we wouldn’t exactly choose to take looking forward, but looking back are glad we did. As the aptly titled song by Rascal Flat’s goes ” . . . and God bless the broken road that led me straight to you.” We choose directions to take our lives in and find that where ever we go we make mistakes. But who would have thought the brokenness in our lives could actually be leading somewhere and that there is a reason for the mistakes we make. I don’t know about you but in my life I hope I make the right decisions and the wrong decisions that lead me to where I am supposed to go.
The worst thing about looking forward at the future I think is considering all the steps we will need to take to get there. Sometimes the worst issue with future is wondering if we will ever get where we want to go. Is the future we have in mind possible? Or if it’s possible that I can I ever complete everything I need to complete to get to that future? Will I have the strength? Will I have the endurance? Will I have my health? We take so many things for granted in our quests towards the goals in our life. Just being able to be alive and healthy and able to move where we need to go is something so vital to completing our goals. Having the skills to be able to complete our goals is also important. Not to mention, functioning with whatever inner and outer strength you possess despite the fact that others may possess better skills and strengths is something in itself. Nobody is perfect and we must use whatever qualities we have to complete our goals towards the future.
I always think the future looks bright, but it is when I am in particular facing challenges, that I think the future can be bleak. It is easy to move ahead when the situation is manageable and looks good. But when the situation looks bad and is hard to manage then I wonder how I will ever get through anything in my life, much less the movements I make towards future goals. Challenges make us stronger, they build character. But life is such as the saying goes, teaching you the lesson first and giving you the experience last. Or to be more cliché – hind sight is 20/20. I believe the worst thing about learning experience is not being able to share that experience with other people because often people have to experience things for themselves, to learn a lesson. They say ‘oh yeah” and ‘uh huh’ when you tell them the same thing beforehand and when they experience some difficult situation that they learn something important from they say to ‘know I understand’ or you see in their work that they now truly get what you were saying to them.
But if we could make ourselves see the truth before it hits us in the face, maybe we wouldn’t actually get the necessary experience needed to complete our future goals. Maybe it takes pain and suffering to teach a lesson. Maybe it takes the ability to figure something out and torture ourselves over the details to learn how to do something right the next time. Or maybe you have to make a mistake a few times to learn something about yourself or what you are trying to do. I don’t know. I know for me that’s how things work out sometimes. I say to myself ‘ I will never do that again’ and then I go and do it again. Drinking, for example, is like that. You drink so many shots of rum until you make yourself sick and the next morning you say ‘ I will never drink rum again.’ Then two months later, having forgotten the taste of the rum you are back doing shots with rum and drinking rum and cokes until you get sick again and again until you drink the bottle one time and finally, you very much mean ‘ I will not drink rum again, ever, ever!’
This is what learning hard lessons are like. It takes a lot of stupidity to get things right but if your lucky you do something wrong one
time and never again. Once I ordered letterhead for the company I was an administrative assistant for. I reversed two letters on the phone number and cost the company $300.00. For a company that made millions of dollars it probably wasn’t that big of a deal but I still felt bad and I never made that mistake again. I triple checked my letterhead from then on. So sometimes you can learn from one mistake one time.
I guess all I hope is that of all the ideas I have in my head for the future that some of those ideas, the right ideas come true. I don’t want to end up regretting my plans even though some of them I probably will. In my heart I want to look back on my life and have used all the talent God has given me up. I want to know I did the best I could even when I couldn’t do my best work. The future is daunting but I still believe in being an optimist about it if you know what I mean. Great things are surely ahead even if bad things are too.