It has been a frustrating past 3 weeks but the situation is looking up. I spent 3 weeks almost just sleeping trying to get use to an antipsychotic drug for sleeping. This drug would allow me to use less of another sleeping pill I need to sleep and give me greater cognitive clarity. But the truth is you never know how you are going to react to medications. There are so many side effects I wonder sometimes why we bother with them at all and I also wonder for the people taking them if they truly are helping them despite the side effects.
The medication I was on at only half a pill even just made me sleep. When I started to sleep a bit less I found myself extremely foggy and having even less energy then I had before. To give you some idea, walking from the beginning of one wing of Kingsway Mall to the end at of that wing made me extremely fatigued both physically and mentally. The mall wasn’t busy but it seemed noisy to me and I couldn’t really concentrate on looking at clothes or shoes or anything ( very odd for me), I just sat in a waiting area while my mom looked.
But I decided after that outing that this drug I was on was not to be because it wasn’t
fixing anything for me just making it worst. So I went back on my Gabepentin and felt extremely sleepy on that medication all day until yesterday when I finally felt awake enough and had energy enough to go downtown and just do simple errands such as going to the drugstore. I started gift shopping as I have 4 birthdays, Mother’s Day, and 2 baby presents to get. I have 2 birthday presents picked out and both baby presents. My brother will take care of the Mother’s Day present so I’m just left with 2 Birthday’s that I’m thinking I will leave until May, although I will have to make a stop at Papyrus or some card store before the middle of May.
Because I missed 2 classes of my Lighting course and I wasn’t sure how long I would miss class for I decided to drop the course. I wasn’t happy about it but I know after missing 2 3 hour classes I couldn’t catch up. So, in September I will be able to finally take that Residential Design course. I just want to get it over with but that is the soonest I can take it. I will see what courses they offer but maybe I will do Green Design if it is available — that course interests me a lot.
I also thought I could take an editing course instead at home in spring but it turns out nothing that I have perquisites for is available. So that is disappointing! I wish SFU had something I could take. But oh well I guess I will just have a long summer.
The worst thing about being home and asleep 24-7 was having to cancel plans with friends and A. Sometimes it is difficult to find times to visit people so I am kind of hoping I can replan events with not to much trouble. Also, since my boyfriend A has been home on sick leave from work I’ve seen him about a half hour in 3 weeks and that bothers me when he is actually home that I haven’t been well enough to have a decent conversation with him. I know once he goes back to work it will be 3 weeks on and 1 week off again but all the more reason to see him more now.
But I feel back to normal again and that’s such a relief. Take care everyone and have a good weekend!