Poem – Quaterns – “You Are Not The Girl” #poetry #amwriting


Credit: Marcus Baccatti – http://www.pinterest.com

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You are not the girl I always knew,

The person I was most like, you flew –

No longer my number two,

You’re the girl I defended too. 

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At every step abandoned I grew, 

You are not the girl I always knew.

You say one thing, you’re actions show,

You’re not a dependable though.

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I disattach so you won’t hurt,

Make the marks of neglect so curt.

You are not the girl I always knew,

I relied too much on you it’s true.

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You’re not such a good person, though —

I put you on a pedestal, so –

I took care of you, and trusted you,

You are not the girl I always knew.

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You are not the girl I always knew,

Life it changed, with it we both grew –

Forced apart at first by you, then thrown,

Hurt so much, but I’ve always known –

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I can’t completely trust you through –

You are not the girl I always knew.

So involved in yourself, stopped thinking,

Stopped caring, it made my soul shrink

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To think of where life takes us, knowing —

One day you’ll leave, forever going.

You’re not the girl I always knew,

You just look like her, there are few –

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Who could ever replace this girl,

But she is stuck in her own world.

Changes, hoping friendship renews, 

You are not the girl I always knew.

*****

©Mandibelle16. (2016) All Rights Reserved. 

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Beauty Haul – Part 2 – June 2016


This is the second part of my beauty haul from February to the present month of June. Part 1 was only on products used on the eyes and can be found here.

For this post, I will only be focusing on makeup and products used on your face, excluding your eyes. As per usual, I buy my makeup from a variety of stores including The Bay, Sephora, and Shoppers Drug Mart online, but I will be searching for the items and providing you links to Sephora whenever I can because they carry the majority of the products I buy.


1. NARS blush in Orgasm – (www.sephora.ca) – $38.00 CAN – This blush is one of my all

Beauty - NARS Blush in Orgasm
NARS blush Orgasm (www.sephora.ca) $38.00 CAN
time favourite blush colours. Not only mine, but beauty product lovers and makeup artists alike. The color Orgasm is described as a “peachy pink with shimmer.” It is one of the only blush colours which can be worn by anyone, no matter their skin tone. Although, my skin is pale and I often tend towards colours which are pink or purple, this colour is perfect for me as well because of the pink tone in it; however, if you have skin which has more yellow undertones, the peachiness of Orgasm will also appear beautiful on you.

Another aspect I love about NARS blush is that it lasts forever. Yes, $38.00 CAN may seem expensive to spend on one blush, but this blush will last you years and works well with many other makeup colours. I had a smaller container of the Orgasm blush I used up before I repurchased the Orgasm blush, and the smaller container lasted about four-years and I wore it two or three times a week.

As well, with many NARS products, the pigment of Orgasm is fantastic. If you’ve lighter toned skin, I caution you to be careful when you apply NARS blushes, including Orgasm because it is extremely easy to apply too much blush at once; you want your blush to appear like a natural flush. I hope you like this colour and will have a look at Sephora online or in-store, at some of the other colours available in NARS blushes. There are many pretty blush shades all with excellent pigment concentration.

Since the Orgasm colour is so popular for NARS, it is one of ten colours you can buy in a cream to powder blush as well as in the powder form. I have also seen the colour in a luminosity highlighter you can add to your foundation to receive a more dewy appearance in summer time.


2. BENEFIT Girl Meets Pearl – Liquid Pearl for Face – (www.sephora.ca) – $39.00 CAN

I purchased Girl Meets Pearl, a year or two ago. I bought it because I thought it would

MAKEUP - BENEFIT Girl Meets Pearl
BENEFIT – Girl Meets Pearl Highlighter – $39.00 CAN (www.sephora.ca)
be a superb natural highlighter for your cheekbones or brow bones, but the consistency of the highlighter was too liquid and I didn’t achieve the look I was hoping to get.

However, this summer I was searching for a luminizing highlighter which is glowy and shimmery, to add to my matte MAKE UP FOREVER foundation;  it gives more of a summery glow to your makeup. I didn’t want to switch foundations and end up breaking-out or having my skin appear too oily.

I apply Girl Meets Pearl after I apply my foundation. I put a bit of Girl Meets Pearl on the top of my hand and take my foundation brush and blend Girl Meets Pearl into my foundation on my face. The results, are fantastic.

Girl Meets Pearl is the perfect “pearly golden pink” for many skin tones and it lightens the heaviness of a more matte foundation, without making your skin oily. It provides a subtle sheen. I’m extremely happy with this product now and I wasn’t when I bought it originally. But, for mixing with your foundation Girl Meets Pearl is the best highlighter product.

As well, Girl Meets Pearl has chamomile and sweet almond seed extract in it so it improves the appearance of skin’s “firmness” and “smoothness.” I also want to mention, I have tried to use this product on several other occasions, so it has lasted well and I think is good value for your money for this type of highlighter.


3. SEPHORA Radiant Luminizing Drops in Starlight – (www.sephora.ca) – $19.00 CAN

Beauty - SEPHORA - Radiant Luminizing Drops in Starlight
Sephora Luminizing Drops in Starlight – $19.00 CAN – (www.sephora.ca)
This product was supposed to do what the BENEFIT’s Girl Meets Pearl does; however, I didn’t realize I had a product which already worked well as a luminizing highlighter to add to my foundation.

When I was at Sephora, I chose this product which is Sephora’s own makeup brand. I have not tried too much of Sephora’s makeup brand but the price was right and I liked the pink colour of the Luminizing Drops. You can also buy them in Ultra Light – Bronze, or Morning Light – Champagne.

I have tried the Luminizing Drops a few times, but compared to the BENEFIT Girl Meets Pearl, it doesn’t do justice to it’s proclaimed ‘luminizing’ effects. You’re only supposed to put a drop or two of the Luminizing Drops mixed with your foundation. This did nothing for me because you couldn’t tell my skin appeared any different than if I had only worn my foundation alone. Adding more drops helped, but it was difficult to do using the dropper in the Luminizing Drops. It’s difficult to get the product out of the container at all.

Maybe, it’s me? I can be mechanically challenged at times, but I’m not impressed with the dropper Sephora used in this product; it isn’t great. I think in this case, you get what you pay for. I cheaped-out, instead of buying a more expensive NARS Luminizing Highlighter (which I mentioned in the NARS blush review above), in the colour Orgasm.

I didn’t end up needing to buy a luminizer at all, but at least had I bought the NARS luminizer, I would have used it all up. I’m disappointed with the SEPHORA Luminizing Drops.


4. URBAN DECAY – De-Slick Makeup Setting Spray -Oil Free – (www.sephora.ca) – $38.00 CAN (4 0z) or $17.00 (1 oz) Of all the makeup products I have purchased lately,

Beauty - URBAN DECAY - De-Slick Makeup Setting Spray Oil - Control
URBAN DECAY Makeup Setting Spray Oil-Control (4 oz) $39.00 CAN (1 oz) $17.00 CAN (www.sephora.ca)
this one is nearly, the absolute best. I’ve watched many You Tube Makeup Tutorials and many women say using a Makeup Setting Spray so their makeup doesn’t rub off, and stays in place, throughout the day or night helps the duration of their makeup. You can also use the Makeup Setting Spray to keep your skin from appearing oily.

This product is everything it promises to be. It keeps your makeup in place by using a technology which “lowers the temperature of your makeup” so it doesn’t rub-off. One reason I know it stays in place: If I go to take a small afternoon nap, my makeup remains on my face and doesn’t end up all over my white pillow case.

Also, because I want my face to appear ‘glowy’ and ‘luminous’ in the summer, not greasy and oily, the Makeup Setting Spray is exceptional at helping my face not appear as if I’m sweating my makeup off.

I only picked up the 1 oz size on my way to pay for other Sephora products and I have found the product to be a game-changer in my makeup routine.As vital as having the right primer for your makeup can be when you want your makeup to last long, I think the the Makeup Setting Spray is an even better purchase, especially if your skin is oily.

I use the Makeup Setting Spray every day and I don’t break out from it either. If you are searching for a cheaper option, I have seen but not tried, NYC makeup in the drugstore, has their own version of URBAN DECAYS Makeup Setting Spray. If you have tried it, let me know how it works.


5. LIPPYGIRL Vegocentric Lipstick in p-Bomb – (www.lippygirl.com) – $23.00 CAN

Beauty - Lippygirl Vegocentric Lipstick in p-Bomb
LippyGirl Lipstick in p-Bomb -$23.00 – (www.lippygirl.com)
I received this lipstick in a Luxebox a couple of boxes ago. I’m so pleased with the colour and how well it stays on your lips, through out the day. LIPPYGIRL lipsticks make your lips feel extremely soft and smooth after applying it.

P-Bomb is a  glimmery lipstick in a bright pink but the lipstick colour is not a pink so bright it is blinding or too bold for the day time. P-Bomb’s perfect to finish off a subtle makeup look and I love it for summer and every season of the year.

As well, LIPPYGIRL lipstick is Vegocentric. If you’re a Vegan or someone seeking to use makeup which is naturally based, this is a great lipstick and website for you to check-out. 

LIPPYGIRL has many more lipstick shades as well as other makeup products for your eyes, lips, and face. I also get the impression from their website, they’re a Canadian company which I like a great deal. It’s important to support our economy and local businesses in Canada.


6. PHYSICANS FORMULA Palette Mineral Glow Pearls in Translucent – (www.ulta.ca) – $13.99 US I was stoked to find this product in Winners in

Beauty - PHYSCIANS FORMULA Transclucent Highlighter
PHYSICIANS FORMULA Palette Mineral Glow Pearls – $13.99 US – (www.ulta.com)
Canada. It was on sale for about $5.99 so I paid much less than the listed US price. I couldn’t find the product online in Canada but I’m certain if they carry it at ULTA in the US, you can find it at Shoppers Drug Mart here. I usually am pretty careful I don’t buy too cheap of makeup because it has a greater tendency to make me break-out. However, I have used PHYSICIANS FORMULA before and I know it’s a mineral based makeup which is better for your skin. The value for the quality of product is awesome with this drugstore brand.

I bought Mineral Glow Pearls because the highlighter I have at home, is too intense for day time wear. I only need something that is going to give a little glow to my cheek bones, brow bones, the tip of my nose, and cupids bow of my lip. The pigment of the Mineral Glow Pearls is only a touch luminizing when used alone, or to contour your face, for every day makeup at work or wherever. This highlighter appears more natural than my beloved Candle Light Highlighter by TWO FACED. But I prefer the TWO FACED highlighter when I’m going out with the girls or am out at night.

I’m extremely happy with Mineral Glow Pearls and highly recommend the PHYSCIANS FORMULA brand if you want makeup that won’t make you break-out, is mineral, a cheaper price point, and comes in many shades and colours appropriate for various skin tones. I bought the Mineral Glow Pearls in the colour Translucent as I am fair skinned but ULTA also showed the same product available in the colours Beige, Light Bronze, and Bronze.


7. LUSH – Mask of Magnaminty – (www.lush.ca) – (125g) $13.95 – (315g) $25.95

 

Beauty - LUSH Mask of Magnaminty
LUSH Mask of Magnaminty – (125g) $13.95 CAN; (315g) $25.95 (www.lush.ca)
Everyone hates being an adult and still having to deal with acne. For me, my skin is pretty well-behaved except for twice a year when hot weather comes in the summer time and when winter weather comes in the fall. My skin tends to break out worse than it does any other time, once or twice, before becoming used to the change in weather.

I love LUSH products and they have been so helpful in my beauty routine. On the LUSH online website they say Mask of Magnaminty is technically a “daily facial wash” but it’s main purpose is “deep-cleaning” for the face and body.

As we have been experiencing warmer weather, my skin began to break-out, so I started using the Mask of Magnaminty every two-days. It completely calmed my skin down and the breakouts have gone away. When I’m not having any acne at all, I have switched to using the Mask of Magnaminty once a week. But if I have a bit of acne, I will use the mask every two-days until my acne clears. A person could use the Mask of Magnaminty every day, but for me, I find it drys my skin out if I overuse it.

The mask contains “aduki beans” to exfoliate skin, vanilla to “calm redness,” and honey “to smooth.” As well, their is indeed ‘mint’ in the Mask of Magnaminty which I adore because it provides your skin with this clean tingly feeling after you’ve washed off the mask.

Mask of Magnaminty is a wonderful product, as many LUSH products are. I think it will replace my LUSH Chocolate mask, which has been my go-to for breakouts and weekly skin maintenance. I also find this new mask lasts a long time. I have had the product for over a month now, and have used a quarter of the 125g container mostly applying it every two-days.

I wish I had the Mask of Magnaminty when I was in high school; my skin would have been much nicer. If you know any body struggling, this a fantastic mask. I can’t believe how smooth my skin feels after using it. 

Thanks for reading my beauty product reviews!


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Poem: Tanka –  “Inevitable Farewell.”


Thanks to The Daily Prompt for the word prompt inevitable.

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Tanka is a classic form of Japanese poetry related to the haiku with five unrhymed lines of five, seven, five, seven, and seven syllables. (5, 7, 5, 7, 7)

The 5/7/5/7/7 rule is rumored to have been made up for school children to understand and learn this type of poetry. For an in depth description of Tanka, please visit the Shadow Poetry Japanese Poetry Tanka section.

Please see Shadow Poetry for more information on this form of poetry.

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Certainty, feeling,

Occurrence will transpire,

Gut instinct forming,

You’re not healthy for me dear,

Harmful, inconsiderate.

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Attempted, I hoped you —

Would be permanent, each day.

Realization,

Dawned in my mind you’re not —

Dependable, not mine.

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I am my own self, 

No cookie-cutter woman,

Not as the others,

Kind, support, gave you a shot,

Dinged crossbar, not close enough.

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We’ve journeyed to here,

Both of us together must part,

Inevibility,

Some relationships don’t last,

Changing my direction, farewell.

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Part 4: Never Again – New Love for Jolene.


Please read Part 3 of ‘Never Again’ here.

Part 4: Never Again – New Love for Jolene.

“Sorry do I know you?” A handsome man around her age asked Jolene.” You seem familiar. And well, you’re beautiful, who could forget you.” Jolene indulged the man with a smile. She was anxious to return to Kasia and Aunt Cathy. No doubt Auntie Cathy had spilled all of Jolene’s carefully guarded secrets to Kasia.

“I don’t believe we’ve met before,” Jolene told the man. “I’m only visiting Cathy Lumiere, with my daughter. I’m Cathy’s niece. I used to live with Cathy when I was in highschool.”

” High school that’s it,” the man mused smiling. He had beautiful lips Jolene thought and such long dark lashes covered his chocolate eyes. “You were the head cheerleader and Prom Queen, you dated Scott Jeune. I never liked that guy. He was obnoxious and a narsaccist if you ask me.” Jolene looked at the man thinking he didn’t realize how true his opinion of Scott was.

” What’s your name, Monsieur?” Jolene asked the man.

“I’m Luc Devreaux, Jolene. I own Chateau Blanc.” Jolene’s eyes went huge when she learned Luc owned the Chateau. She studied his face, staring. Jolene tried to remember if she’d ever seen a Luke Devreaux at the Chateau.

Luc cleared his throat and Jolene realized he’d been holding out his hand for her to shake. Instead of shaking her hand though, he went in for a kiss on each of Jolene’s cheeks. Jolene blushed. Luc smelt delicious, spicy, and citrus.

“How French of you,” Jolene said and Luke gave her a charming grin.

“You have been gone so long you have forgotten about your French roots?” Luc asked Jolene and she hesitated at Luc’s question.

“Well, I travel a lot for work. I wasn’t from Nice or even France originally. I was born in Montreal, Canada. And except for business I have lived in Ottawa with my daughter for five years now… I’m trying to picture you Luc as you looked when I was in highschool, but I can’t remember you. I’m sorry, I was a wild girl at sixteen and seventeen -years-old. I went out with many boys until I met Scott. Lucky, the thing with Scott was only temporary.” Jolene felt she was rambling but Luc made her nervous in a wonderful way. He made her feel as if it were fine for her to be herself.

“Well we went out a few weeks,” Luc began, “but I wasn’t living at the Chateau then. I inherited it from my father later. Mon pere and ma mere have been divorced since I was twelve and I lived with my Mother, who had custody until I was eighteen. But I visited my Dad here in the summer. I remember you well from when you went to high school. You were amazingly pretty, full of yourself, but what pretty teenage girl isn’t. I wanted to keep seeing you, but Scott asked you out. Even though, I was a few years older than you, all you cared about was Scott.” Luc said sadly.

Jolene thought hard. Slowly, a few threads of memories came together in her mind. She remembered a  handsome guy, older than herself, who resembled Luc. She had met young Luc on the path to Chateau from the beach where she had been sun tanning. Luc had been good-looking in a classically handsome way, lanky and athletic. He wasn’t charismatic as Scott had been. But Luc as a young man was an unwavering presence. He was thoughtful and concerned about what she had liked and wanted to do. He had manners and everything wasn’t about himself. In addition, as he said, Luc had been older than Jolene. She had been attracted to the fact he was a university guy back when she was seventeen-years-old.

” I remember you Luc,” Jolene said happily. “You were visiting your father and we met on the pathway. It was dark and thundering and the waves were splashing high on the path. They waves were making it hard for me to stay standing on the pathway as I ran to the Chateau. You came and helped me across and we had hot chocolate together. We dated three-weeks, you were caring and concerned. I thought you were a real catch — until Scott. I was obsessed with Scott for far to long. I’m sorry if I hurt you, dumping you for Scott. You were the better guy.” Luc laughed and grasped Jolene’s hand between both of his larger hands.

“I’m glad you remember, finally,” Luc murmured. “I heard from some of the other staff that Cathy’s niece was going to be staying here awhile. I’m glad you are. I seem to remember we had quite a bit of fun in my old apartment when you were in senior year.”

Jolene lifted her eyebrows, “I believe we did.” Luc laughed.

“When you have time between visiting with your Aunt, come see me in my office. We can catch up… I never heard you had a daughter.” Luc added.

Jolene grinned her hands still enclosed in Luc’s warm hands, ” Yeah, she is great, fifteen now. I will come see you in a few days. I’m a bit run down from travelling and I have a lot of explaining to do with Aunt Cathy. . . when I left years ago it was quite sudden and we haven’t seen Aunt Cathy since.” Jolene admitted to Luc, unsure why she felt like being so honest with him.

” I’m not used to this again Luc. I haven’t dated or really done anything since my daughter was born. There’s been a few random dates but nothing concrete. It’s hard to trust someone for me Luc. Especially, after Scott . . .” Luc nodded brushing a stray hair out of Jolene’s face.

“It’s okay Jolene. We’ll just enjoy each other’s company while your here and see where things go. There is no pressure to do anything you are not comfortable doing.” Luc assured Jolene holding both her hands again.

Jolene looked into Luc’s eyes which seemed to pull her in and hold her close, like she wanted his arms to do now. She realized she had an affect on him as he tightened his hands around her hands and Luc’s breathing quickened.

” I work, I model a little and I run a chain of clothing stores for woman. I am with Kasia, my daughter as much as possible. I wasn’t always able to be with her when she was a bit younger as much.” Jolene said feeling herself flushing again under Luc’s stare.

“What a lucky girl to have a mother with such beauty and intelligence. I’m sure she inherited those qualities from you. I would like to take Kasia’s pretty mother to dinner, after she comes to visit me in my office. Oui?” Luc said. His voice sounded sexy to Jolene.

Oui, Luc,” Jolene said quietly. ” Kasia will be surprised. She has gone on more dates than her mother has in many years.” Luc smiled at Jolene squeezing her hands in his still. Luc let Jolene’s hands go slowly, trailing his fingers along hers as he let his own hands drop and hers.

Jolene walked away from Luc back to her Aunt Cathy’s sitting room, willing herself not to catch her black boot heel on a carpet edge. She looked back once to see Luc standing where she left him in a hallway, watching Jolene walk away. She gave him a small smile and Luc waved.

Part 5 is coming soon, today even!

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