Photo Challenge/Saturday Mix: Poem – Wrapped Refrain (2) – “The Fighter” #amwritingpoetry #photochallenge #SaturdayMix


Thanks to Nekneeraj of MindLoveMisery’s Menagerie for hosting this week’s photo challenge. Also, thanks to Sarah of MindLoveMisery’s Menagerie for hosting Saturday Mix opposing forces. This week’s opposing pairs are: whisper and shout, and humid and dry.


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“And Though She Be But Little, She Was Fierce” – William Shakespeare, A MidSummers Night Dream (Act 3: Scene 2).


The Champion” by Carrie Underwood Ft. Ludacris


I’m no faceless void, I’ve been granted reprieve to barriers break,

Discovering my mind, my body healing slow now awakes.

I’m trying to live in short moments,

Dreams won’t fade, no shouts or groans;

No weeping or fearing fierce blows.

Nor shivering in a cold few know,

A champion, I can fight my foes,

They but perceive whispers of woes;

Woes experienced by those who know not how a mind shatters;

Of lost clarity, aching sickness that still batters.

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It’s a shock when you notice healing; when your hurts lessen,

When you’re not forever jaded, aching or questioning.

You forgot life’s joyful details.

Skills, hopes, your ability maimed;

Daily routines to avoid what hurts,

Became your normal to subvert —

But now, your reborn hopes anew;

Seeing the lost isn’t askew.

Whirling in hope’s return, less chocking humid shame and pain,

Released from your cocoon, joy-de-vivre once more regained.

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All you who are broken, whether trapped or quivering afraid,

Gaze to the Heavens, your family, your friends, unashamed.

They’re your rocks, they carried you;

Don’t forget them, their aiding through.

Remember it’s okay to need —

People’s help, when your hurt, demeaned.

To need is to serve when unseen,

Brittle and dry or slow healing.

You’ve a purpose; nothing’s impossible, suffering’s a strength,

Keep pushing, keep living, keep yearning, keep praying; hope waits.

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Life’s never stagnant, we’ve all ‘ups’ and ‘downs;’ no one’s quite safe,

From changes, illness, or heartbreak; but keep achieving great.

Accomplishments can be little or —

Leaping giant steps towards doors;

Those that open — those we must pry,

That we knock, break down as we cry.

Be thankful for what you have, but strive —

To live your life joyous and alive.

Keep knocking down doors, but help others survive their drought too;

You’re no faceless void — I think you’re fierce; vibrant fighter through.

*****


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Photo/Music Challenge/ Saturday Mix: Poem – Decuaine – “No Pretty Tears” #amwriting #poetry #musicchallenge #SaturdayMix #photochallenge


Thanks to NEKNEERAJ of MindLoveMisery’s Menagerie for hosting this Photo Challenge #219. Also, thanks to Sarah of MindLoveMisery’s Menagerie for hosting Saturday Mix with a prompt based on writing a Decuain. Finally, I’m also combining with MindLoveMisery’s Menagerie ‘s Music Challenge #28 with the song “Cry Pretty” by Carrie Underwood.


Decuain:

The Decuain (pronounced deck•won), created by Shelley A. Cephas, is a short poem made up of 10 lines, which can be written on any subject. There are 10 syllables per line and the poem is written in iambic pentameter.

There are 3 set choices of rhyme scheme:

ababbcbcaa, ababbcbcbb, or ababbcbccc

For a longer Decuain poem, add more stanzas for a double, triple, quatruple, etc. Decuain.


Credit: Enzzo Barrena


Cry Pretty” by Carrie Underwood


I’ll keep my heart closed, remain unexposed,

For I’m just a girl, though composure slips —

I can’t stay rock solid, broke and alone.

To shatter is human as each soul someday splits,

Despite all the glue patching seismic shifts.

I’m trapped in these thorns, a city of ash-bones,

I cry as I struggle caged, my insides nicked.

No one cries pretty, but smiles hide your groans.

You can say it’s all fine, until fake tears loath,

No masking; no one cries pretty like stone.

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Lace and gems can’t hide my inner heart’s shame,

I try to be real, but false words infect —

In a crowd or at home, beneath poise tears rain.

Mirrors don’t lie, hurt a picture of neglect,

So, my eyes flow, as infection wrecks.

No one cries pretty, scarring pain isn’t myth.

You can’t pretend when the dam breaks, correct —

Those trails of mascara; they blacken and drip.

Scratching your face, skin red, itching with pain;

You can’t cry pretty — you’ll learn real tears save.

*****


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Music Prompt: Poetry-Free Verse – “Down In The River”


Thank you to Mind Loves Misery’s Menagerie for this weeks music prompt: “Something In the Water,” by Carrie Underwood. I love love Carrie Underwood. She’s playing in Edmonton in the fall and I’m excited to see her ‘live’ again. This will be my 3rd Carrie Underwood Concert.

What’s also exciting, is her concert will be in Edmonton’s new sports Arena. For those of you who are familiar with the NHL, the Edmonton Oilers have a new home arena at Rogers Place downtown.


“Something In The Water” – Carrie Underwood


As I went down to the river to pray,

Saw everyone going about their day.

Thinking, who should wear the starry crown?

Good Lord, there’s something in the water,

I need my eyes opened, I’m lost, I’m astray.

With the snakes all around me, can this be the right way?

Oh Sisters, Let’s go down, they’re saying the water saves.

No more, wasting the life we’ve been given,

Time for an instant decision,

Go down, go down, go down, down to the river to pray.

Walk into the water, have a little faith.

I know you’re all out of hope, and you’re blind, have no sight.

God, if you’re there, come and rescue me.

The cries of the desperate and those who believe;

Something in the water, and it’s not something  bad.

It’s something which could save us; something alive.

Fathers and Mothers, come down with me too;

Down to the river to pray.

A preacher man waits, and he dunks your head in,

Says you’re clean, now go change your ways.

Joy in my heart and Angels on my side.

Go down, go down, down to the river,

You’ll be a wash in the light, in His glory.

Thank God Almighty, I saw the Light,

Going so far down, I fell into the river and prayed.

Trusting something so much bigger than me.

He who wears the starry crown.

Down to the river, down to the river,

Down to the river to pray.

There, my sins were washed away.

I once was lost, but now am found,

Was blind, but now I see.


*As you can see, this poem, my reaction to the prompt is composed of my own words and words from three different songs.

All words which are italicized are from the song “Down to the River to Pray,” by Alison Krauss (the music video I’ll post below) but originally from the movie: Oh Brother, Where Art Thou?

“Down To The River to Pray” – Allison Krauss


The words which are in bold are from the prompt song by Carrie Underwood: “Something in the Water.”

The last few lines which are italicized and bolded are from the hymn Carrie uses in her song: “Amazing Grace.”


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Flash Fiction for the Purposeful Practitioner: Kidnapped


“What is this place?” Alec asked. 

“Oh, um, meeting someone here, is that okay?” Robert said.

“I guess, so man.” Why did you have to meet somewhere so deserted? Alec wondered. He  felt as if he was separated from the entirety of civilization in this empty parking lot. “Why is there a parking lot here anyways?” 

” Oh,” Robert said, he looked nervous and was fidgeting, “there is big concert near here every August. Big Valley Jamboree, have you heard of it? It’s actually quite fun, I’ve been a few times.”

“Oh, yeah?” Alec said. “What kind of music is it? Seems to me this is one of those huge music festivals that goes on for days.” 

“Exactly, man,” Robert  muttered, wringing his hands and rolling his shoulders,” it’s country music. This year I think Carrie Underwood is the big act, last year it was Lady Antebellum . . . oh here’s the guy I’m supposed to meet.” 

A black pickup truck parks haphazardly and a guy with dark sunglasses approuches.He looks at Robert and then at Alec. “This him?” The man asks. Two other men bald and large like bouncers are behind him. Alec begins to back away.

” What do they want with me, Robert?” Alec asks confused. Robert shrugs and smiles, walking away to his red car. The men grab Alec and blindfold him. A rag full of chloroform is put up to his mouth and nose.

When Alec wakes up, he is in a club, his favourite in Las Vegas. He is dressed exceptionally and all his buddies are around him drinking and being loud. 

Robert approaches Alec remorsefully. “Sorry to do that to you buddy, but we wanted it to be a total secret. I really wanted to surprise you. Happy Stag party.” Alec grins.

” You’re a dead man Robert!”

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My List of Songs That Have Created Memories


1. Crazy In Love – Beyoncé

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I’m not sure how to explain the meaning behind this song for me. It came out when I was around eighteen or nineteen-years-old. I relate it to a sense of freedom and fun times had with friends, especially with friends who have remained friends ten or more years later. Not to mention, this song kind of keeps staying popular as time progresses. That I know of, there are about three different versions of “Crazy In Love,” and I’m sure there is probably more. It is a song that always gets me dancing. 

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2. Red High Heels – Kelly Pickler

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Maybe this more of the partier in me, but it is also a piece of the girl who became the woman. It is about self-confidence and finding yourself in a world that tells woman they have to do so many things to be beautiful. To me this was the anthem of the girl some guys treated miserably. They didn’t care for her feelings, they just saw an opportunity to try to take her home. This is a power anthem, “your about to see just how missing me feels, in my red high heels.” Proof that great shoes are vital to a woman and a woman is most powerful when she sticks to her guns, and doesn’t compromise her values.

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3. Before He Cheats – Carrie Underwood.

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Haha more lady power! Sorry guys I would never actually do this to any man’s truck, but there are a few guys I dealt with that I wanted to do this to their vehicle. Some guys when they are young especially, don’t know how easily and carelessly they hurt women. So this song just made me feel good about myself again and I loved dancing to it in country bars with my friends. It is Carrie Underwoods second huge hit and she sings it awesome live in concert. I’ve seen her a few times luckily. 

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4. Chasing Cars – Snow Patrol

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I think this song came about around the sametime the show Grey’s Anatomy was in its first few seasons. Almost everybody I knew, loved this song when it came out. I found meaning through it on Grey’s, it was often played when Derek and Meredith were experiencing a special moment as their relationship developed. Later, it was played last year, when Meredith let Derek go and took away life support, as he was brain dead after his SUV was hit by a semi. It also played when Meredith went into the house Derek built for their family, –alone for the first time after Derek’s death. So, I suppose I really just love Grey’s and the relationship Derek and Meredith had, held a truthfulness and closeness I wanted someday in reality. The song also reminds me of sadness when I think of what could have been but isn’t. It’s about being about that wonderful time in love, when you want to “just forget the world.”

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5. Be Still – The Fray

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The full meaning of this song is difficult for me to grasp. On the surface, I think it is some guy telling his girlfriend, that he will be her resting place, and always be there for her. But in my mind, in my heart, I’m sure the lead singer is talking about God. “Be still and Know that I am the Lord Your God.” I have turned to this song in many situations when I have felt helpless, worn out, and hopeless. Each time I hear it, I hear God telling me it is going to be okay that I need to do nothing but “be still.” He will do what needs to be done, he is ultimately in control.

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6. Fighter – Christina Anguilera 

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This is a song I first played when things never went anywhere with the first guy I loved/liked. To this day I don’t know if I loved him or not. I think I did, but I’m not sure why, I didn’t know him that well to love him did I? But it still feels as if the emotion was there. Getting over him, or maybe my idea of him, took a long time. From the time I downloaded this song on my IPod, it gave me hope and showed me how strong I can be. My experiences, made me “a fighter.” And today when I hear this song, I know I will always fight for what’s important to me, not men who act how he did.

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7. Temporary Home – Carrie Underwood

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I think this is a beautiful song. Carrie Underwood is one of my favourite artists. One reason is because she can sing kick ass girl power anthems but can also sing songs that are softer, of a spiritual quality. This song makes me cry when I hear it. I’m not sure why, but it makes me think of Carrie’s lyrics and how life on earth is only a temporary thing. One day we’ll die and if we have Jesus, we will go to heaven — life with him is more important then life on earth.”This is my temporary home, windows and rooms that I’m passing through. This is just a stop on the way to where I’m going. I’m not afraid because I know, this is my temporary home.”

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8.  The House that Built Me – Miranda Lambert

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I don’t think that anyone has gotten to where they are without the help of their families, whether that family is related or not. This song makes me cry too, because it reminds me that my family built me, made me the person I’ve become. It makes me think back to those years when I was a child or a teenager, almost wishing I could experience those times again. But I’m an adult now and here where I am, my family is still building me.

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9. Fix Me Up – Tegan and Sara

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This song is also, one of those wonderful songs played in the beginning of Grey’s Anatomy. It has a lot of correlation between Derek and Meredith and their relationship on the show. I heard the song and went out and bought the CD immediately. It is a lovely song. It always made me think that we can try to fix and change someone all we want but in the end we only need their love. “This love is all I have to give,” Tegan and Sara sing. Like Meredith, we have to put ourselves out their and give the best love we can give in life.

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10. Brave – Sara Bareilles

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This is a new song for me, I’m not sure why I didn’t hear it before now, considering I’m a huge fan of Sara’s. It has influenced me a lot lately. I’m trying to push myself as a writer and as a person, out of my comfort zone. I’m trying to make my writing better and trying to get some of it published. In addition, I’m working hard at being healthier and eating well. But it’s hard being brave. Even though you maybe trying to be brave, not everyone is. And you can’t push someone who is not willing to push themselves out of their comfort zone –frustrating but true.

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Thanks to  La Duchesse D’erat for this weeks list prompt.



What I’m Listening To


Something a little different. Here are some songs I am listening to on my phone right now. Some old good ones and some that are newer. But all different genres. If you can`t see the videos from YouTube please click on my blog title and go into my blog to see the music videos.

1.Sound of Silence: Disturbed

 

2.Uptown Funk Featuring Bruno Mars

 

3. Limes: Brad Paisley

 

4.Smoke Break: Carrie Underwood

 

5. Everglow: Cold Play

 

6. Charlie Puth: Marvin Gaye featuring Meghan Train0r

 

7. Tim McGraw: Diamond Rings and Old Bar Stools

 

8. Kate Voegele: Hallelujah

 

9. Sia:Alive

 

10. Miranda Lambert ft. Little Big Town: Smoking and Drinking

Songs that Describe My Life – (Please Go Into my Blog to See Music Videos) 


1. Early Childhood – Baby Beluga

2. Later Childhood –  I Just Can’t Wait to Be King- Lion King

3. junior High – Killing Me Softly – The Fugees

4. High School – How You Remind Me – Nickelback

5. University – Fighter – Christina Anguilara

Rihanna – Umbrella 

Crazy in Love – Beyoncé

6. Working and Getting Sick, and Afterwards – The Rest of Life – 

Just a Dream – Carrie Underwood

Chasing Cars – Snow Patrol

How to Save A Life – the Fray

Where Does the Good Go? – Tegan and Sara

Fix You Up – Tegan and Sara

Be Still – The Fray

Sia – Titanium

There are so many more that represent me but I can’t fit them all! 

Before He Cheats


Writers Prompt Challenge #2 Writer’s Hub

Carla was angry, she was furious. She had trusted Kyle again and he had cheated on her just like the last time. She sat in her living room on a Saturday night her gut churning and she thought to herself ” [r]ight now he’s probably slow dancing with a bleach blond tramp and she’s probably getting frisky. Right now [Kyle’s] probably buying her some fruity little drink because she can’t shoot whisky. Right now he’s probably up behind her with a pool stick showing her how to shoot a combo.” The images went round in her head. “He’s probably doing this. . .” and ” he’s probably doing that . . .” and what could she do about  it, then the answer came to her in an instant.

That stupid truck of his, that he loved more than her. That awful machine that growled in anger every time it sped up. That dumb Chevy that he was so proud of. ” I wonder” she said aloud ” How he would feel if I [dug] my keys into his pretty little souped up four-wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seats. [I’ll take] a Louisville slugger to both headlights, slash a hole in all four tires, [then]  maybe next time he’ll think before he cheats.” She picked up her Louisville slugger, grabbed her keys, and headed for the door, “yes” she laughed, “[m]aybe, next time he’ll think before he cheats.”

But on the way the way to the bar where Kyle had his truck parked Carla began to think about what he might be doing with some tramp in the bar again . . . ” [r]ight now she’s probably up singing some white trash version of Shania karaoke, Right now she’s thinking I’m drunk and [Kyle’s] thinking that he’s going to get lucky. Right now he’s probably dabbing on four dollars worth of that bathroom polo, but [Kyle} don’t know . . .” Carla thought to herself in glee. She grabbed the slugger and ran her hand up the side as she parked her car a distance from the truck. She got out of her car, saw Kyle’s beautiful shiny and disgusting truck in front of her in the bar parking lot and began to break it. Glass shattered, leather ripped, metal dented, and headlights broke. “Maybe next time he’ll think before he cheats…” Carla laughed.She thought that “[she] might have saved a little trouble for the next girl, because the next time that [Kyle] cheats . . . it [wouldn’t] be on [her] . . . no not on me” she said in a high-pitched maniac voice. She giggled and began smashing Kyle’s beloved truck to pieces and shards again.

Before He Cheats

Carrie Underwood Blown Away Tour May 17, 2013


I am struck by the power of music how melody can just carry you away. I cannot say every singer or band does this for me but one who does is the wonderful Carrie Underwood, whom I got to see for a second time in concert last night. Carrie’s voice is strong and powerful for such a tiny woman but she never seems small to me. Her performance, her band, her light and projection shows, her floating stage on her recent tour, are all larger than life.

For me it is that moment she started singing “Good Girl” that her voice really struck me. It was like bang! Right from the start her low powerful voice hits you somewhere in your stomach and later in your heart unleashing a mash of emotion and feeling. Unleashing a part of you that celebrates, dances, and releases your troubles at the sound of Carrie’s passionate vocals.

It’s not only the sound of her voice that is epic but her lyrics are a poetry unto themselves. They are a connection among women everywhere, sometimes among people every where, who hear her lyrics and think this is just how I feel. Sometimes, I feel my life is out of control and I want “Jesus [to] take the wheel,” sometimes I feel like bashing in the car of that loser who will ” maybe next time . . . think before he cheats,” and sometimes I get so frustrated with life, with my past I just want it to all get ” blown away.”

Her songs have always been an inspiration to me. Particularly, her more Christian songs like ” Temporary Home” as I consider my belief in Jesus and that one day I will be gone from this temporary place as wonderful as it is sometimes, in the hands of God when I die. Sometimes I feel that I literally just have to let ” Jesus take the wheel, ” leave my life in his hands or I would not be able to handle another minute. And if anyone has ever heard her You Tube Video of the hymn ” How Great Thou Art” you will know what it means to believe in God who is capable of so much love and such giving, to bless a singer to be able to effect people in their hearts and souls the way Carrie Underwood does.

Even if you are not a Christian it is hard not to be affected by Carrie’s beautiful voice and it was the perfect evening. I got to spend the evening with a good friend, have a few drinks, and be carried away by the rich textured and strong voice of Carrie Underwood, to live for a moment just in her music and the good vibes shares by the crowd and performers alike.

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How Great Thou Art


English: Carrie Underwood in concert May 2007
English: Carrie Underwood in concert May 2007 (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

September, has crept up behind me this year like a wild animal. I was not ready for the sun shiney days of summer to end and I am not quite ready to get back into the swing of things at the U of A Extension’s Residential Design program. I still imagine myself in soft summer dresses and flip flops sitting out on the patio with a good book to read and a comfy chair to lay back in. But the dog days of summer are over and here I am in my pj’s covered in a blanket, looking up into a gray and dreary sky outside our front picture window – just waiting for everything to begin again; waiting for fall to pounce on me and bring me into its hustle bustle and loneliness. There is a quiet sense of something building inside of me and I am not sure what it is but I know new things are happening out there in the world and it’s time for me to join back in; to make decisions, live with the consequences, to discover, and build my future.

The first decision I made was to take care of myself better and get in better physical shape. Now this plan includes exercise, but as I do not physically have the energy to do boot camp, or any kind of intense work out so I joined Herbal Magic and have begun a diet based on portion control. Each day I can eat 2 protein, 2 starch, 2 fruit, 3 veggies, 1 dairy, 2 fats, and 1 free exchange item ( such as a 100 calorie dark chocolate bar or another protein if I need). Measuring your portions, according to Herbal Magic’s guidelines, and eating balanced meals along with some vitamins that help with your metabolism and work as appetite suppressants should help you lose weight. With the exception of the first day, I have found as long as I spread my protein’s out throughout the day I stay full and I am confident I will lose the 2 pounds I need to lose each week, and will eventually have the discipline to keep the weight off. Since, I also believe exercise no matter how small of an amount, is an essential part to taking care of your body – I will finally start doing  Yoga at the gym once or twice a week since all my classes are at night, and continue on the elliptical, yoga and Pilates DVDs, and small weights I lift at home.

Secondly, I am looking to get a B+ or higher in my business course for interior design as I think it will be a lot more writing and planning, than finicky work on presentation boards. Taking a course at night instead of the day, will also be a challenge – they always are at night!

Thirdly, I did what I felt was right, and broke up with someone special at the end of August. It was a hard decision to make as I was becoming quite attached to him and just enjoying our time together. But there were other issues going on, as there always are in relationships – good things and bad things but the bad started to outweigh the good. I was quite sure of myself and moving on nicely until he wanted to hang out next week and told me he wanted to continue dating – not be girlfriend and boyfriend but just date?! Does this make sense to anyone? I mean does it not feel to you like a step backwards, not forwards. We decided we had no long-term future but he still wants to date me but not be accountable; it feels like he just wants to do what he wants, when wants,  and date me when he feels like it? I am really mad about it actually. I told him we could be friends and thats all I promised so far but I am so tempted just to start dating him again even though I feel I am doing the wrong thing for myself. There are good things about dating him again and there are bad things. I was so excited to be single again, but yet now I feel that I miss him. Men, will you ever make sense to me? So this made me think about one of my favorite songs “Good Girl” by Carrie Underwood and the line – “His lips are dripping honey, but he’ll sting you like a bee.” Have a listen and tell if this is not the theme song for this part of my life now?

(September 11, 2012 – I had to add this in here: My special person and I are back together. We are not perfect and when it came down to it we simply had to talk things out. A lot of the time, it is difficult to know what someone is thinking and as girls (and guys I would assume too) we often assume the worse about someone’s intentions. Relationships are difficult things and I have never had a fight or disagreement like this before so I assumed the worse, and broke things off. When my boyfriend contacted me a week after we broke, he told me he wanted to date and seriously. This is what I needed to hear, his trust! Truly ‘How Great Thou Art” God gave me a blessing, valuable experience to not assume the worse! But still listen to the song still I believe it is reflective of  certain times in my life and others:)

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But after, all of this I listened to another song. Carrie Underwood (yes she is was one of my favorite artists) “How Great Thou Art” a hymn she sang at Grande Old Oprey. It reminded me that we can always pray to God, and that he will always be there for us. That we can put our small problems in His hands and not have to worry about them because He is truly Great – “then sings my soul, my savior God to thee, how great Thou art.” This brings me solace as I know with God I will make the right choices in my life, and if I do not, then I always have back up; no matter with weight or health related issues, no matter with school or work issues, and no matter with boyfriend or former boyfriend issues, because God is bigger and can understand any issue I may or will ever have. Have a listen to “How Great Thou Art:” Maybe it will help you too!

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