Growth is a strange thing to watch from a distance; to see your bestfriends when you were young, become ‘adult’adults.
To see the drinking binges slow to every now and then; to not order drinks with dinner because we’re trying to be healthy.
To see your friends not stuck anymore in someplace that was holding them back; to see them educate themselves for work and travel for training.
To see them couple up; to see couples years together break it off; to see some couples get married to people who actually complement them.
To see your friends have babies, one or two or three; to sit at a table where Mommy topics are debated; and staying healthy, eating fresh, organic, vegetables and meat is the score.
To have friends in high school and in university who have passed away; to wonder where they went. To hope that they went to heaven because you know no one is invincible to death.
To have friends who suffer diseases : cancer, MS, and mental illness; depression is a common thing and so is anxiety, yet our awareness that we could have any disease at our age is covered by our blinders.
To have had a job or two in actual grown-up jobs that pay salaries that pay the bills; that you can shop for your own food; take care of a pet; to save and move into a house.
I watch you all growing and I’m proud that you’re grown. I just hope you keep growing and never ‘act’ old. Even though your responsible to your partner now.
I watch from the distance and you don’t see it because I’m slower then you; but I am growing too.
I have to grow in a different way to find balance in my world. I need to grow in spirit and imagine what is possible. I pray to grow just as you do someday.