It plays out, how it plays out.


Hi, It’s been awhile. I wish I could say I’m completely feeling better but I’m laid up in bed. But I do feel well enough to do a little typing. Thank goodness, I’m quite bored of just laying here and sleeping but feeling sick anytime I get up. Part of what I have is due to a terrible head cold the other part, the flu part, symptoms from trying a new medication, ironically with less side effects then the one I had before. So, yesterday I switched back to Rispirdone and I haven’t felt the good effects yet, it’s only been 12 hours. But my stomach doesn’t hurt and that’s a relief.

It’s been a week now since I broke up from A for good. I think what finally did it for me when he said ” it’s on you” and I was mad because relationships take two to screw up and I was also happy because I didn’t have him to badger me about making a choice. I could make it on my own and I was ready to be done with our relationship. I didn’t even think about wanting to contact him all week. Yesterday was the first day I felt sad and started to think about all the memories and good times we had built together. Breaking up isn’t easy especially when you’ve invested three and a half years. I think about the situation and think A would like this, or I should pick this up for A. Then I drop my iPad as if I’ve been burned because I realize again it’s just me now and it was my choice. And I’m happy about my choices, relieved, but I still miss when the situation was great between A and I.

But there is a finality to this this time. I don’t want to go back. I want to move ahead. Some day I want a relationship with a different guy and I have a little better idea what I’m looking for. A did some things really good and really bad. I’m sure I did too. Hopefully, I can learn from my mistakes and I hope he does too. I’m glad he’s in school and has that to distract him. I’m proud he finally went, but I can’t tell him that so this will have to do.

Despite having an insanely bad week I’m looking forward to spending more time with friends and a fiction course and copy writing course this spring. I’m thrilled to go back to Las Vegas with my Mom. and I’m considering either a certificate or MA in Creative writing. I’m still slowly working on my book and I’m even still thinking about that tattoo I always wanted. Just a little worried about the pain.

That’s it for me until I’m a little better still.

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mandibelle16

I'm a Canadian girl who loves the local sports scene. The NHL and CFL And recently, some NFL games. Also, I’m into hatha yoga, walks in the river valley; drawing and painting, makeup, hairstyles, and the beauty niche. Also, I enjoy learning about improving my writer the other topics in seminars, classes, TED Talks, and podcasts. I’m a casual Freelance writer and worker. Both on various subjects of academia in the humanities, social sciences, business, arts, and architecture. I’ve also freelanced blog in beauty, health, skincare, and related topics. I’m an excellent researcher in most any subject. I’m also a freelancer of a different kind for a company called Givergy. Moreover, I love dogs and love hanging out with my friends and family whenever I'm able. I enjoy spring, summer, and early fall when the weathers warm and there are many festivals and activities occurring. I'm also a writing fanatic. Check-out some of my published poetry on www.spillwords.com. I’ve been published on other literary sites, as well. Recently, I had a short story published in a Cinderella Anthology, Cinderella Reimagined. It’s available here: https://www.amazon.com/Cinderella-Reimagined-Anthology-Retellings/dp/1979701970/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1523903011&sr=8-1&keywords=cinderella+reimagined If you need to contact me or are a blogger/writer or a blogger for a cause and are interested in being Interviewed, please visit my ‘contact page’ at the top of my blog.

2 thoughts on “It plays out, how it plays out.”

  1. It sounds like despite the general crappiness of a breakup in general, you seem to have a great outlook on this and know that it’s for the better.

    It sounds like you’re already learning from your mistakes. 🙂

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