Happy Halloween Update


Hey everyone good afternoon!  I just thought I would send out a mini update of how things have gone lately. But first I want to briefly tell you about a couple of blogs that are in the works for me. The first blog I am doing is a Winter Fashion Loves complete with some great pictures of fashion examples I think are key for the Winter Fashion Season. The next blog is a Makeup Foundation Comparison for those with skin that tends to break out and is still sensitive. So, if you have either of these skin types watch for this blog because after trying a few foundations over the last 4-5 months I have narrowed down the best foundations for your skin.

Onto the update: yes me and the boyfriend are great! We had a little tiff and I freaked out and sometimes in relationships a fight can seem as if it is the end of things. Really, when I was able to talk calmly to my boyfriend and we pieced are relationship back together, I realized I was just being silly and we took each other back gladly. He told me I was the girl for him, that he had known that for a while and this was very comforting to hear.

I am not that experienced as relationships go so something I need to learn with my boyfriend and in life is to not make snap decisions and to think problems through. I find when I make rash decisions that I am not always thinking straight and if I leave the situation until the next day I can see the situation clearly, unlike the day before. The danger is that when something is wrong you always want to just deal with it right away but patience is a virtue for a reason.


My next piece of news is that I have reached stability with my mental illness, or rather I’ve been forced to. Going to visit my psychiatrist yesterday I was told there is nothing else she can do for me and that we have tried every drug out there that could help me. Strangely, enough Dexedrine,  a drug I take to focus me, help me pay attention, and concentrate better has the exact opposite effect on me then it does on anybody my doctor has every known. It is used for depression patients, for ADHD, to helping seniors, to focusing pilots flying planes,  and instead of focusing and energizing me,  increasing the dose past 10 mg makes me sick. I have flu-like symptoms and feel very tired instead.

I had the feeling this day was coming, that because I am so sensitive to so many of the drugs I tried that either I cannot tolerate them or I am allergic to them I would reach the day when psychiatry could not help me. But this is good news in away because it means with the exception of the psychotic episode that started my whole illness, the cause of what I am experiencing now is not psychiatric, its physical. Depression or some type of mood disorder maybe something that is a result of this physical disease but it is not why I feel as if I have no energy all the time.

My next step is to go to my family doctor and look at other diseases that could make me greatly fatigued. The biggest contender now, at least in my mind, is Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I will have to go through a bunch of testing to confirm this because you can also have fatigue and there can be no known cause, but I seem to fit the profile alarmingly well. First, I have had the fatigue longer than 6 months, probably about 4.5 years; secondly, sleeping does not reduce this fatigue, it is a type of tiredness that is something else entirely; thirdly, of the other symptoms of Chronic Fatigue I have depression,  insomnia proven to not be from a common sleep disorder, daily pain in my shoulders, neck, upper back, and sometimes legs, effects on my short-term memory and concentration, unrefreshing sleep, and often after a day out I feel extremely tired even 24 hours afterwards.


I could be very much wrong in my assumption but it really above anything else seems to fit my symptoms and what I have experienced throughout my ordeal. But maybe there are other explanations, this I will have to leave to my doctor to prove or disprove.

The last thing I wanted to tell you about is that I have decided to try writing for Flurt again. Although I had to stop largely due to my health. I am going to try writing articles – 1 good article when I find a topic I am passionate about. This weeks topic has to do with Obamacare demanding corporations pay for 100% of a woman’s birth control in the US. Should corporations who are often treated such as individuals, be able to deny their women workers this right because their CEO’s are religiously against it? You’ll have to read the article to find out what I thought of the issue in the next couple weeks. Also make sure, to check out Creative Edmonton’s Moustache Gala for Movember Canada at Yellowhead Brewery on November 15, 2013 in Edmonton. The article I did for Flurt on it can be found here:



Thanks for listening, and I hope to have my other blogs out soon!



All That I’ve Gained


Yesterday’s blog was kind of difficult for me. To admit to the world all my flaws and inabilities as a 28-year-old adult wasn’t easy but last night I was thinking. I thought that mental illness is often talked about so negatively. Often, I and others only talk about the bad experiences we have because of our sickness but you don’t stop living once you get sick. Life becomes harder but you soldier on and get through the tough times and a great number of good things happen between all the difficulties you have to face in life, just as it is for people who are mentally healthy. So today I wanted to share with you the good experiences that have occurred for me since becoming part of the mentally ill, maybe only because I had this health issue.

1. Awareness of Mental Illness – I have become aware of what it is like to be a person with mental illness. Through my experiences I am able to share what it is like with other people what it is to have a mood disorder. This generates sometimes an intense amount of discussion on websites such as Facebook and sometimes in the comment sections of my blogs. I am able to empathize with people who go through mental illness and other illnesses, especially with people who have experiences such as mine. I have also spent a lot of time on the internet researching the symptoms and medications associated with different mental illnesses and learned a lot of facts about those aspects of mental illness. There a lot of things that are common across mental illnesses but there are also certain things that are different. Sometimes, however, it is thought the same pills will help different sicknesses and this is not always the case.

There is also often a misrepresentation of how most mentally ill people are in real life and how they are shown in movies. A movie that was great at showing the truth about mentally ill people was Silver Lining’s Play Book with the gorgeous Bradley Cooper and beautiful Jennifer Lawrence.  But movies that often make it difficult to be a person with mental illness because of how others perceive mentally ill people after watching them are movies such as Shutter Island with Leonardo DiCaprio and Girl Interrupted. That is not to say that cases such as those in the movies do not occur, it’s just that they are the extreme version or a worse scenario of what mentally ill people are truly like.


2. I Learned not to be Shy – Sometimes I am quite because I am fatigued or tired and that is often the case, but when I do have energy I have found I am very good at obtaining information about others and what they are experiencing in life. Plus, I am not afraid just to talk to a stranger often anymore. I used to be so shy or assume people were just a bother but now even some weirdo who is hitting on me or some people who others might consider an unsavory character such as homeless person I don’t mind talking to for a few minutes. I just realized that by being shy I was missing out on so much and as hard as it is for me to talk sometimes it’s even harder for other people to talk, especially cute guys and potential friends.

Additionally, somebody who has anxiety or who most people will ignore and not talk to often need to be heard the most and have a lot to say. Just because a stranger is talking to you doesn’t mean they are out to get you are being creepy (some are but not most). Most people just need someone to listen to them and to care about their life. People can be so intrinsically focused that they often forget everyone is experiencing their own personal battles or have their own unique stories and life experiences to share.

3. A Serious Boyfriend and More Great Friends – It has been said that when you are going into a new group of people you should have a gimmick or something that makes you memorable to other people. The fact that I am on disability, write for women’s magazine, and can only take one class a semester, well that makes for great conversation. I start sharing the details of my life and other people are soon ready to share about their lives and I have made some excellent friends this way. Sometimes I’d rather not talk about what my life is actually like but sometimes talking leads to meeting amazing people. After all, a person who does not go to work everyday, cannot be involved in many volunteer activities, and/or fitness activities anymore, needs to learn how to make friends somehow.

So I talk to friends of friends more, talk to random people more, and when it came to wanting to get out their and meet a boyfriend, I even went online to POF and found my wonderful Azdine. And best of all Azdine liked me even though I was sick and is really tolerant and understanding of my illness. He told me in his religion people who are sick are blessed. I doubt he remembers that now but it was a good pick-up line. We have gone out over 1 year and 6 months and we have our ups and downs. At heart, we are homebodies but we get along famously together.20130916-093053.jpg

4. A Closer Relationship to God – When I was first sick, I hallucinated during my psychotic episode that I was in Hell at the Hospital. I dreamed that my parents would be taken away from me eventually because you aren’t allowed to have parents in Hell. I thought the nurses in the hospital were really going to hurt me, and I desperately wanted to not hear voices. I wanted to be able to trust what I heard come out of people’s mouths. I thought God had forgotten me, that I was separated from him eternally and that things would only get worse. Then slowly, as medication began to take effect and I came out of my psychotic episode I remembered the Footsteps poem which states that when we think God is nowhere to be found, he is really carrying us through the bad times in our life.

Later, I realized God was trying to bring me back to Him, closer to Him. You see in my life I hadn’t really been concerned with God as a priority. I cared about drinking and hanging with my friends and I was afraid to share God with the people in my life. Slowly, as I got better I got to the point where I could mention my beliefs to people and not be ashamed to be a Christian. I learned to cast all my worries on God and that through Him I would always be supported because He is so much stronger than any problem I might have. God is the light in the darkest of times, a lamp guiding my feet when I do not know what direction to turn. I may not know exactly where to go or what to do when I face hard times in my life but I know a footstep in front of me and that is all I need.

5. A Closer Relationship With my Family – I never realized how desperately I needed my parents until they tried to leave me at the hospital after the first horrible week I spent there. I hated the Psych Ward and I hated being stuck there and I looked forward to seeing my Mom and my Dad every day for the few hours they would spend with me at night in the hospital. Since then, even though it is tough to live at home I have realized what a blessing my parents and my family are in my life. I did not see my brothers for 3 weeks in hospital and that was a long time, I actually missed them! And when my little brother moved out, he always made and makes time to visit the house or we go and do things together such as see movies, go to the art gallery, and go shopping (etc).

I also realized how important the elderly people in my life were, how their story connected to my story in this life. My Grandma, for instance, I began to talk to earnestly and make an effort to make conversation with her and let her talk about herself. I developed an adult relationship with her. I also stopped saying I would visit, and actually started visiting my God Parent’s mother, my Grandma Reeder, Evelyn.


Evelyn cooks so much food when I go over there, I always try to bring someone with me so she doesn’t make me eat it all. Her desserts especially are amazing such as uncooked blueberry pie with mounds of whipped cream and home-made trifle. She has so much to say and has experienced so much tragedy in her life. Yet Evelyn has this amazing outlook on how she deals with at life, with much conversation and a smile on her face and Evelyn is in her mid 90’s.

Other people such as my God Parent’s saw how bad I really was when I was sick and I always feel like when I go over to their house I am in my second home. They lost a daughter to depression while I was dealing with my depression. She was in her late 30’s and had just gotten married. She was my family too, when I was first sick she came and talked to me and told me to focus on 3 things in my life to not get so worried about life and just take it day by day, something my mom also tells me to do.

So, it seems as if we lose a lot when we become sick with mental illnesses but it is also important for us all, those who suffer and those who hear our stories, to understand we are many of us still extremely blessed despite our sickness.

All That I’ve Lost


I am inspired to write to you today, again on the topic of mental illness, because of a Vlog my friend posted on YouTube. Her blog answered the question lots of people seem to ask a person with a more or less permanent mental illness: Why Don’t You Get A Job? I started to comment on her blog and realized I had a lot more to write on this topic and related issues to it.

First, it is essential to realize that anyone who has had any type of long term illness wakes up one day from the dream they called their life to the realization that they are a sick person. Accepting that you are sick can take a long time for some people and a shorter time for other people depending on the outlook of their sickness. Facing death I think would be extremely hard for some people to face, but facing mental or physical disabilities can also be a difficult sentences to live with. I have not resigned myself to the fact that I will be sick forever, but the possibility exists – I could always be this sick. But then you learn to live with your life the way it is and you blossom and grow into life no matter what your situation. But there always certain things for a person with long term sickness will have to give up, ways of life other people may very well take for granted.

Physical illnesses can have terrible effects on people such as when my Grandpa became very sick with emphysema he had to go around everywhere with an oxygen tank. He could no longer walk even a little distance because his lung capacity was so greatly diminished. So he gave up his ability to breathe on his own, his ability to walk around on his own, and his energy levels were greatly decreased because it took a great effort for him to breathe. But for a person with mental illness, what they are giving up in their lives just to get through life, may not be as visually apparent.

In my case, since I can only function between 3 to 5 hours a day and not every day I have given up everyday practices that most people wouldn’t think twice about doing. I cannot do more than one or two activities in a day and only for a shortened amount of time. I can barely manage to go out 2 days in a row and usually only in summer and spring when there is more sunlight in the sky and I have more energy due to this fact.


I have lost my awesome memory and have trouble remembering things that were immediately mentioned. I have given up memorizing things 2 nights before a test, it usually takes me a week or more now to commit information to long-term memory for a test. I gave up driving because I was not a safe driver on the road because cars around me felt as if they were going to fast and I do not have the same reflexes and ability to pay attention that I once did. In addition, I often cannot take the bus both ways because energy and motivation wise I cannot handle the noisy bus. Especially on the way to somewhere, the bus wears me out.

I have also lost the ability to shut out every little noise and just concentrate on what I am doing. I am better at this then I used to be but sometimes the lull of voices or sounds in a space can be become quite painful and overwhelming. I no longer have the ability to physically exercise and work out hard. I loved the endorphins I used to receive from exercise but I just cannot do it anymore. I am not lazy, I get sick or worn out all day. I have also given up the idea that I will be able to stay a strong fit woman, one day I know this life without exercise will catch up with me even though I eat a portioned healthy diet.

I have lost a life of ever feeling energetic. I never feel energetic. I am fatigued when I get up in the morning and I am greatly fatigued when I go to sleep at night. Most of the time lately, I am tired too and this feeling of tiredness never goes away either. I also gave up being able to trust my moods as an indicator of how I am really feeling. Sometimes I am feeling down because of my depression and not because I am sad or having trouble with something.

Additionally, I have at least for now, given up on the idea of living on my own because I cannot do all the things I need to do on my own doing such chores as grocery shopping, cooking supper, and cleaning well because of my energy levels and low motivation. I also cannot afford to live alone. I think if I live on my own I will have to be married or in a relationship. I have also given up ever thinking I will be able to make a decent income in my life. Although, I am blessed to have Disability through insurance and many disabled people don’t have that, all I will ever make is $23 000 in a year and I think even if I manage to work half time some day, I don’t think I will be able to make more than that as my disability will claw back what I make at work.  And really, if I am honest I have lost the ability to have a job because I cannot work even half time every day or 3 hours twice a week even. I’m stuck even when it comes to volunteering.


Now I don’t mean to complain. I’m just telling you the realities of my life and perhaps, the realities of many people on disabilities’ lives. My only hope to make money would be able to work at home and structure my job around the times I am feeling well – that’s one reason I would love to be a professional writer. But even the times I feel well change according to season and day and week. I am content in my life and I hope you are in yours, but if you ever wonder why someone with a disability isn’t working or contributing more to society, now you have some idea of why.

It is especially important to have empathy where people with long term illness are concerned. We all get sick in our life at one time or another. Some of us get sick a long time, sometimes our entire lives. It is not a perfect world and as long as it’s not, people will be sick and some people may not even seem to be sick such as myself or my friend who Vlogs.

In to To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee Atticus Finch says: “You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view… Until you climb into his skin and walk around in it.” We all read this book in junior high or high school but I think we forgot to take the important message away from it’s pages. No matter what any person can do or can’t do, no matter what color skin they have, no matter who they are, we need to empathize with them and get to know what it feels like to be them inside. Only then can we break down the walls and the stigmas people have with mental illness and other important issues in society.



Progressing Past Regression

A few blogs ago I wrote to you about how instead of progressing in my fight with depression, I was regressing. I have never been one to sit out on life and let my everyday be unliveable so I have decided to take some steps to further help myself in dealing with my health regressions.

The first step, I took was to go to my psychiatrist and tell her how I have since last winter felt as if I had less energy, less motivation, and more emotional upheaval in my life due to changing moods. This resulted in some difficult medications changes that did not work.
Increasing my Dexedrine levels from 10 mg to 20 mg made me very Ill and did not increase my energy or my concentration levels. It took me several days to not feel the withdrawal affects of the Dexedrine and now I am going back up to my normal level of antidepressant. The problem is although I have returned to regular medication levels, I am not myself, the medication changes did not work. I am not sure what my psychiatrist will do next appointment because she did not seem sure what to do this last time.

My psychiatrist is excellent, the problem is I am very sensitive to many medications. Of the many Medications I’ve tried besides the medications I’m taking, 1/3 I am allergic too and the other 2/3 I have an intolerance for. Translation, they make me very sick. So it is depressing to think that I have more medication changes coming up in the near future, at the end of October. I think adding to the cocktail of medications I already take is the way to go about these changes but another option entirely, is to go into hospital and start with no medications at all, to start from a blank slate so to speak.

This is scary because at least the medications I am on right now make me feel somewhat normal and I abhor Psych wards and hospitals, possibly because my last experience with one was in the middle of a psychotic attack. But this experience would be a little different but going off medication completely to begin with frightens me. But today my psychiatric nurse asked me when we had coffee, to think about how I wanted to live my life: How I am living it now or better? Could I live it at least as well as I was living it last summer or better? I don’t think she or my doctor can guarantee any sort of success for me where my health is concerned but perhaps, after 5 years, it’s time to try some new things and be in a place where I can easily talk to doctors who are sleep specialists and have other types of consults as well. But I just don’t know about being in a hospital a month or more it’s a situation I have to consider carefully.

Another thing I have done to help my health situation is to talk with a psychologist. I have an appointment coming up next week. I’m not sure exactly what this will do for me but my friend recommended it and she is studying her Master’s in this area. Plus, my insurance will cover a few sessions a year. Maybe this is a way I can come to accept my situation and learn how to deal with it mentally. Or even just having someone to talk to and give me feedback that will give me different feedback then my family and the people I have been working with for the last 5 years. A fresh pair of eyes so to speak. Apparently, my friend tells me the best way to deal with depression is to have a mix of medical help and psychotherapy. So, it will be interesting to try that and see what comes from it.

I hope that if you are dealing with something similar that you have the courage not to be ashamed of your disease. It is a part of you and gives you great insight into a world where many people suffer. I also hope that by blogging my experiences and decisions regarding my health that you have some ideas of how you might deal with your own mental health struggles. I’m sorry to say this but it really is just a game of trying different medications, healing methods, doctors, and experiences until you find what works for you and your health. Then again, maybe you’ve become lucky and been able to deal with your own situation rather painlessly. Either way I hope this blog was enlightening. Just because you are sick doesn’t mean you are incapable of doing great things.


Friends With Benefits: A Saturday Afternoon Movie

Recently, I was watching a movie on Netflix and decided to write a blog about it. The movie is called Friends with Benefits and stars Mila Kunis and Justin Timberlake. I wasn’t expecting much from this movie but was pleasantly surprised when it turned out to be a great way to spend a Saturday afternoon.

Friends with Benefits is a movie about love, sex, and  the social networking that has become a part of sex and love. I was pleasantly surprised when the movie turned out to be great (better than the 3 stars Netflix gave it) with humorous characters, a solid story-line, and a great cast of characters to keep the movie exciting. What is so likable about Friends with Benefits is the movies tendency to make fun of the genre of romantic movies.

In the film, Jamie Rellis (Mila Kunis) a plucky head hunter for a firm in New York recruits Dylan Harper (Justin Timberlake) to work for GQ Magazine. She convinces him to work for GQ by selling him on the city of New York and its lively lifestyle. Jamie is not afraid to take on any man and her character has energy and vibrancy. Knowing no one else in the city, Dylan quickly becomes platonic best friends with Jamie.


One night while they are watching Pretty Woman, Jamie and Dylan come to the conclusion that sex shouldn’t have to come with emotional attachment. As both feel the need to connect physically, they have several sexual trysts and become friends with benefits.

The director in the movie surmises that the characters and audience are sick of the romantic cliches found in romantic movies so he switches things up so our two main characters are having sex, but no love is apparent between them at this point in the movie. Secretly (or not so secretly) the director knows the audience adores the cliches that make romantic movies likable so he pokes fun at these cliches creating a bit of a raunchy romantic comedy. In the end, we still infer that Jamie and Dylan will be together.

I really felt the sex scenes in the movie were realistic to a real life couple having sex, as opposed to many fabricated sex scenes in the movies. It takes time for Jamie and Dylan to discover what the other likes in bed, and they aren’t shy about what they want because there are no romantic feelings between them so they won’t hurt each other’s feelings. They are also hilarious and relatable, one of my favorite lines was when Jamie told Dylan if he didn’t start shaving the stubble on his face she would stop shaving down there, and she was dead serious.

Dylan has never brought a girl home before and after Jamie’s boyfriend walks out on her, he invites Jamie to California where he and Jamie share a genuine night of passion unlike either of them has ever experienced before. The cutest part of the movie is when they show each other their tattoos and Dylan has a Harry Potter lightning bolt tattoo on his lower stomach – he is still a bit of nerd beneath the corporate adult and I think many people who enjoyed and grew up with Harry Potter would find the Harry Potter tattoo relatable to their generation.


Sadly, while Dylan develops feelings for Jamie, he tells his sister defensively, that he doesn’t care for Jamie romantically, that Jamie is only a friend, and that there is no real intimacy between them. Jamie is heart-broken overhearing this and leaves California for New York without offering any explanation of why she left.

Dylan wonders in New York why Jamie refuses to talk to him, and when they finally get in touch, Jamie reveals that she heard everything Dylan said to his sister and has no interest being with him. Even though the movie tries to make  romantic comedies look dumb, we end up in the same place as we would in a typical romantic comedy, with the the big-screen couple separated from each other by their own stupidity. Despite the movies misrepresentation of typical romantic comedies you still feel yourself rooting for Jamie and Dylan to work their problems out and become a couple.

Later, Jamie discusses her relationship issues with her mother and Dylan with his pantsless father at the airport; in fact Dylan joins his dad and takes off his own pants and they sit in the airport restaurant, eating breakfast in their boxers. Dylan’s father suffering from Alzheimer’s disease, mistakenly thinks a woman in the airport is a woman he met in the Navy – the love his life whom he let go, and has always regretted the decision to leave. He cautions Dylan not to do the same in his life and if he has any chance of saving his love, Jamie, to go and find her now – and Dylan does.

I thoroughly recommend this movie as a naughty but light-hearted comedy to see with your friends or significant other. The characters are


funny and interesting and the topic of whether sexual trysts require intimacy and connection is a relevant question in today’s world. When so many women and men are just ‘hooking up’ with each other, can we really keep our emotions separate from our sex lives?  Still, many women and men manage to have purely sexual relationships well, but I think the movie suggests that a friends with benefits relationship often turns into a real relationship, even if the movie does mock romantic movies to begin with.





MAC Mineral Foundation and Powders

Lately there has been a big push for women to use mineral makeup because it is supposedly a healthier makeup for your skin. It’s not so much what is in mineral makeup but what is left out of mineral makeup. Mineral makeup leaves out preservatives, parabens, mineral oil, chemical dyes, and fragrances. Many dermatologists recommend mineral makeup based on the fact that these omitted ingredients are possible skin irritants.

New York dermatologist Neal Schultz, MD says. Mineral makeup is “much less likely to cause a reaction in women with sensitive skin. And because it doesn’t contain oil, it won’t aggravate acne-prone skin.” As well, Chicago dermatologist Brooke Jackson, MD, who uses mineral makeup herself, suggests it to her patients with rosacea and eczema. She also recommends it to women with sensitive skin. “Women in their 30’s and 40’s will come in and say they have bathroom counters filled with products that have caused reactions because of one ingredient or another,” Jackson says. When these women  “try mineral products, many are finally able to wear makeup for the first time in” years.

“Mineral makeup will not . . . replace your moisturizer, acne cream, or anti-aging serum . . . But it does offer some excellent skin care benefits. Titanium dioxide and zinc oxide are both found in Mineral makeup and act as physical sun blocks, so an even application of mineral makeup provides some sun protection.” But if you’re going to be spending hours outdoors on a sunny day, choosing a sunscreen with an SPF 45 is critical. Zinc oxide is also an FDA-approved skin protector in mineral makeup. “It has some anti-inflammatory properties. “Since mineral makeup [has] a higher percentage of zinc oxide than traditional makeup, it [is] useful in calming irritated skin.”


MAC Mineralize Moisture foundation ($42) is a nice mineral foundation. The only thing that I do not love about it is that it is so ‘moisturizing’ which means that if you are prone to have oilier skin it is a good idea not to wear moisturizer underneath your foundation as the foundation can make your skin look greasy. Mineralize Moisture Foundation is supposed to give your face a dewy youthful look but this look may not suite everyone and you may want to try one of MAC’s more matte foundations such as Match Master SPF 15 foundation or my favorite MAC’s 15 hour Pro Long Wear Foundation.

Generally, I find Mineralize Moisture foundation to be a foundation that covers well, especially when you put MAC Mineralize Skin finish pressed powder over the foundation. However, I find that MAC’s mineralized makeup is not long wear. Long wearing is an attribute I often look for in a makeup. Instead, I have been using  MAC’s Pro Long Wear foundation despite the fact it is not  a mineral makeup because it does not melt off your face half way through the day and because it does not make your skin appear oily.  Mac claims that Mineralize Moisture foundation is a “combination of powders [that] create . . . an optical blurring effect that diminishes imperfections and fine lines, for [an] even tone. The light-reflecting, natural satin finish makes skin appear refined, revitalized, and refreshed with a new purity, softly lit from within.”


You have 2 choices when it comes to MAC mineralized pressed powders. Your first option is Mineralize Skinfinisher Powder ($35) that has “ [a] luxurious velvet-soft powder with high-frost metallic finish” that smooths on and “adds buffed-up highlights to cheeks and brows, or an overall ultra-deluxe polish” to your face. So if you are going for a more luminous look in your makeup this would be a fantastic finishing powder for you. But as for me, I chose MAC’s Mineralize Skinfinish in Natural ($35) which I find better for every day. It’s easy enough to add shiny highlights to your face with other makeup hi-lighters when you are going out somewhere special. Mac holds that it’s Natural Skinfinish makeup is “[a] luxurious domed face powder with minerals, slowly baked to [give] a dimensional yet natural-matte finish.[It] provides a perfect low coverage finish [and is used] to set and fix foundation or as a touch-up throughout the day.” What I absolutely love about this powder is that it dulls out most of the shininess from the liquid Mineral Foundation. Since it is matte it looks better on women with different skin types, especially those with acne prone skin. My only complaint is that it doesn’t quite give the coverage other powders do and wears off quicker. Although mineral makeup may be better for your skin, I think I will use the powder as a finishing powder when I go out at night and stick with my Clinique Pressed powder and MAC’s Pro Long Wear Mac foundation for its excellent skin coverage.

Mineral makeup powder maybe great for some more sensitive skin types but it lacks certain aspects important to women using makeup such as long term coverage and a matte application. It can also make your skin oilier if it has moisturizing properties.

Clinique Turnaround Overnight Radiance Moisturizer vs. Garnier Ultra-Lift 2-in-1 Wrinkle Reducer Serum & Moisturizer

Recently, I have attempted to cut costs on items I usually buy in certain categories of my budget. One of theses categories I have tried to spend less in is personal items which include beauty products such as the two I am focusing on today: Clinique Turnaround Overnight Radiance Moisturizer  ($54) and Garnier Ultra-Lift 2-in-1 Wrinkle Reducer Serum and Moisturizer ($22).

Of course, I am sometimes biased to the more expensive products to begin with, that’s just me. If you asked me to blindly choose which products I liked out of several beauty products, I would without fail choose the most expensive items. A lot of the time I find it’s true that the more costly beauty products work better than their cheaper counterparts but this is not always the case.  After watching a YouTube video comparing these two products I felt I had to give the cheaper Garnier moisturizer product a try. The lovely girl who did the video felt that the Clinique and Garnier moisturizers were working equally well on her skin and that the less costly Garnier product was the better beauty buy. Well I came to a different conclusion:


Clinique Turnaround products are in my mind, some of the best beauty creams that exist. They make your skin feel baby soft and promote cell turnover so that your skin heals faster from marks left by acne and the inevitable dry skin that comes with winter weather. Also, the Clinique Turnaround Overnight Moisturizer specifically, can be used as a daytime moisturizer as well as a night-time moisturizer. But if you have very oily skin this moisturizer is not for you because it can make your skin feel greasy. But if you tend to be more of a combination skin type or have a dryer skin type, then this Clinique moisturizer is perfect for your skin. I have combination skin and use Clinique Turnaround Moisturizer twice a day and it works great.

Another aspect about all Clinique products is that they are excellent for people with sensitive skin, especially if your sensitive skin is the reason you are breaking out or having other skin problems. Clinique products are more than hypo-allergenic they have no perfumes or ingredients in them that will make your skin react to them. On http://www.clinique.ca the product description for Clinique Turnaround Night Cream reads that it ” [i]nstantly reveals a healthy radiance” and [g]ently replaces dull, worn-out surface cells with livelier, more luminous” cells. “Skin breathes [and a]ccepts moisture better” and the cream “optimizes up-and-coming cells to help” your best skin emerge. . . [d]ay after day, skin seems to glow from within” and [b]ecome . . . smoother over time.”

And I believe that the Clinique Turnaround Overnight Moisturizer is definitely worth the $54 per jar as it lasts me 3 to 4 months. A little moisturizer goes along way. And the very fact that I break out less when using this cream or any Clinique cream,  tells me that Clinique truly does live up to its customer’s expectations of producing products that are healthy for your skin and not irritating or damaging. This is why I like the Clinique Turnaround Overnight Moisturizer better than the Garnier product.


Not only was Garnier’s cream oilier and made my skin break out much worse than it has broken out in a long time, the Retinol ( I think It was Retinol) caused a burning sensation on my skin. Not to mention, while the Clinique cream had no particular smell, just a regular cream like smell, the Garnier cream smelt like it was rotting, literally. When I tried a bit of the cream in Shopper’s Drugmart I did not feel that the smell would bother me that much but every time I put the Garnier cream on I cringed from the acrid smell. Who wants to buy any product that smells like it is rotting? Not to mention the cream made my skin feel greasy by the end of the day because it did not absorb well, unlike the Clinque cream for me. So, I was a bit disappointed as you can see that I even spent $22 on this product when that money could have gone towards the Clinique moisturizer.

Lesson learned, You Tube beauty product videos are not always right and a girl must always consider her own skin type and if it is more prone to be irritated by cheaper products from companies that do not always take skin irritation and sensitivity into account.