Flash Fiction For Aspiring Writers – The Sacrifice


I saw you struggling fervently between the two muscled Celtic warriors. You looked at me, a little blond haired woman with acceptance, or was it the large silver dagger that you knew would kill you.

You looked to be a fine warrior and I blushed like a young girl when you looked at me not showing fear but interest.

You were placed on the alter in front of me and you asked, in my own tongue, for me not to sacrifice you. I was for the first time, moved by a sacrifices pleas. You looked at me as if you saw right through my guise of non chalance.

The dagger rose high into the sky in my hands which shook as my tribe chanted. You lay there, tears pricked me eyes and I aimed for your heart. But then somehow your bound hands were free and you grabbed me and the dagger and held it to my throat.

The crowd gasped. The warriors came forward. I was vital to our community, they wouldn’t let you kill me. But now somehow I am yours and I nuzzle deeper into your arms as we ride away.

Word Count: 176 words


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Lush Obsession


I have been loving Lush products lately. One reason is because they are all natural products and an even bigger reason I love using them is because they work well and are at a  good price-point. I want to note that some of Lush’s products come in containers you can return (once you have 5) for a face mask. Just rinse them out and dry them then take them  into the store for exchange. In the products I’m going to be talking about today both the Lemony Flutter and Ocean salt come in containers Lush can reuse. Here’s all the products I’ve been using lately:

1. Lush Daddy-O Violet Shampoo – $29.95 for 500 mL bottle – This shampoo smells lovely with a lasting scent of spice cookies. It is found in 3 different sizes and price points but I think buying the biggest bottle gets you the most for your money. It is a very dark purple shampoo for people with blond or grey hair and it keeps your blond and grey from looking brassy. Since it is such a dark violet you don’t need very much and you only need to use this a few times a week. You can use your regular shampoo on other days. Or if you’re like me you can use it every day to keep your hair soft and smelling great. I first received a sample of this at Lush before I bought a big bottle so if you’d like to just try it out first you can always ask Lush employees at the store for a sample first. But I think you’ll like it and be pleased by how long a large bottle lasts

2. Lush American Cream Conditioner – $29.95 for 500 mL bottle – I was a

little surprised at how great this conditioner is. I am very picky with conditioner as I need one that is moisturizing but won’t weigh down my hair when I curl it, for instance. This conditioner is medium strength but keeps my hair conditioned well and smells like strawberry and vanilla. It is a customer favorite at Lush and I love how my hair does not end up frizzy or heavy as some conditioners might cause it to be.. I completely recommend it as it also lasts a long time. I also think it is worth it to buy the big bottle over the smaller 250 mL and 125 mL sizes.

3. Lush Lemony Flutter Cuticle Butter – $16.95 for 45 g – My new favorite foot cream is Lemony Flutter. When I was in hospital I would wear flip-flops around and my feet were getting so dry. Although this product is called ‘ Cuticle Butter’ it works on your whole foot. It has a lovely real-lemon smell and softens your calluses and any dry skin on your body. I was really impressed with how moisturizing it is without being too oily. Although, it seems like you only receive a little container it goes a long ways and lasts quiet a while even if you are using it every couple of nights to keep your feet moisturized and callus free. Trust me, it’s worth the purchase next to any foot cream out there.

4. Lush Ocean Salt Self Preserving – $35.95 for 250 g – I like scrubs that smell great

and leave my body and face feeling soft. Lucky this scrub, works on both the body and the face and is mixed with fresh avocado and coconut to leave your skin feeling baby soft. You just take a handful of it in the shower and scrub your skin everywhere and voila you are set after rinsing off. There wasn’t any of the large size when I bought this so I just bought the 125 g size and I used it once or twice a week and it lasted about 3 weeks. Because of the type of product it is — sea minerals or salt — it is not the kind of product that is going to last you a very long time. So, you could argue you are maybe not getting your money’s worth. But I enjoyed using the sea salt for a treat for my skin. I wouldn’t buy it all the time but every now in then it’s wonderful and if you keep it for a long period of time it won’t go bad because it is self preserving.

5. Lush Sugar Lip Scrub in Mint Julep – $9.95 for 25 g – I actually purchased this lip scrub before Christmas when my lips were dry and there was lots of dead skin on them due to dry winter weather. The lip scrub is basically made up of sugar with a few different types of oils and peppermint flavoring in mint julep. It comes in other flavors such as bubble gum, honey trap, and popcorn for your enjoyment. Basically you pick a bit of the sugar mixture up with your finger and spread it on your lips. Then, you press your lips together and rub them together to get the dead skin off of your lips, then you simply lick away the remaining sugar off your lips and put on your favorite lip balm or stick. Your lips are left smooth and feeling great! It lasts a very long time I have had the small jar for about six months and I still have half of it left.

Navigating Anew – It’s Okay


Ever since I left hospital, I have felt as if I’m navigating completely new territory that I have no experience with. I don’t know if what is affecting me is the new medication I’m on or a lack of the old ones I went off. So, my health and getting through each day has become a challenge. 

Each day it is extremely difficult to get out of bed and start my day. The best description I can come up with is that there is this giant wall and I have to climb over it inch by inch to reach a point in the morning when I feel okay. It is difficult to get out of bed, shower, and do my hair and makeup. I sleep to 11:00 am almost and that is too long, but it takes me to 1:00 pm to feel somewhat myself. But still everything feels so much harder to do. Maybe I’m overmedicated I don’t know. But struggling through each day is difficult. I try to remember to take things day by day and not to worry.

But my stomach always feels upset and I’m getting aching muscles as side effects. Not to mention I learned from my dentist since about a year after I started taking medication (became ill) the enamel on my teeth has rapidly been decaying until I have none left on my lower teeth and we don’t know the exact cause. I have always taken care of my teeth well. I only ever had one cavity so this is disappointing and troublesome on top of the rest of my health problems. 

Still, I have tried to plan things and go out and do things despite feeling not so up to it. This week it was just my weekly blood test and the dentist but atleast I walked a bit around downtown and the weather was a beautiful twenty-three degrees celsius. Next week I will have my blood test and my Uncle’s funeral. I will hopefully see my friend on Wednesday night for a couple hours and then on Friday I am getting my nails done at The Beauty Lounge. I hope I can do everything I need to do. 

I have to find sometime this week to go to the Shoppers near our house to pick up some parcels, get medication, and some other things. Either tomorrow or Saturday I will do that. And sometime I need to see A. We saw Jurassic World on the weekend. It was very good. I really liked the storyline and of course the newest genetically modified (for modern time) dinosaurs. It did justice to the original Jurassic Park too, one of my favourite movies as a child. 

I’m looking forward to feeling better and doing more things. I would like to do some catch up on some beauty blogs, do some work on my novel, and read some books so I can tell you about some of those. Things will be fine I just have some kinks to work out. In medicine, nothing is ever as good as it seems. So of course, a drug that makes me sleep is going to have some consequences for my energy in the day. But things will get better, I’m positive that I can with my doctors help find solutions. Thanks, for reading.  

 

Poem – The Challenge


Maybe, I’ll be stronger ,

When I can face the challenge.

Maybe I’ll get through it.

When I have some freedom.

There’s liberty in government, 

Then there’s liberty of health.

Sometimes there’s freedom of the heart,

Sometimes the chains of life are heavy.

I wish that I were so young again,

When everything was really nothing.

When I felt like I could not be harmed,

And when I couldn’t do no harming.

But life has taught me that we grow,

And drown in our struggles.

Sometimes all we need is a hand up,

A guardian, a wing and a prayer.

But though I try not to worry,

I feel at my back time always wins,

Filling up my days with such aggravation,

I try to get ahead, but my chains cause abrasions.

Healing is along process,

If you survive to Monday.

Or make it until the morning.

You are no weakling.

You are just a human fighting,

Embracing life’s challenges,

Not letting it overcome you,

You are forging freedom.

You are the broken spirit

Holding light in the darkness. 

Literary Lion: Something In the Water


Water can have great symbolism in many religions and cultures. Water is life, we could not survive without it. Think about it, there is nothing else man has produced that can take waters place when you are thirsty.And there are different kinds of thirst.

In Christianity, water has a big significance with Baptism. Water and Gods Word (the Bible) combine to baptize a baby (often older people too) to bring them into God`s family and protect them so that they know God. I know that this isn`t actually a fiction story but I lost my Uncle Darvin last night. Sadly, I never saw him when he was sick with cancer or before that for a long time. I haven`t been able to go to church lately with my sleeping medications. I wish just once or twice I’d made more of an effort on my better days.

But I miss my Uncle Darvin just the same. I always imagined him at my wedding someday. He always called me beautiful and he gave the best hugs. I have memories of going to his and my Aunt Shirley`s house when I was little girl and playing in a back yard he was terracing and getting all dirty. There are memories of going to `The Donut Shop` with him, my parents, and Uncle Barrie and Aunt Josie after many church services. I remember when we did the reconstruction of our church and helping him, I was maybe ten years old.

Yesterday, he passed away. But I`m glad he has gone to Heaven, here he was in so much pain from the cancer. How do I know he is heaven? Well it started when he was Baptized, with some water. And that water made him grow and nourished him in God and quenched his spiritual and physical thirst in life. It  nourished him to the end.

In his poem Crossing the Bar Lord Alfred Tennyson compares death to going out to sea. He writes, ” [m]ay there be no moaning at the bar, / when I put out to sea, . . . I hope to see my Pilot face to face / When I have crossed the bar. (3-4, 15-16). The sea is salt water and indeed, a fitting use for water and passing on, taking your last journey on a ship into the ocean and this time your captain is God.

Here is Tennyson’s full poem Crossing the Bar:

Sunset and evening star,
      And one clear call for me!
And may there be no moaning of the bar,
      When I put out to sea,
   But such a tide as moving seems asleep,
      Too full for sound and foam,
When that which drew from out the boundless deep
      Turns again home.
   Twilight and evening bell,
      And after that the dark!
And may there be no sadness of farewell,
      When I embark;
   For tho’ from out our bourne of Time and Place
      The flood may bear me far,
I hope to see my Pilot face to face
      When I have crost the bar.
Thanks to I am Smith for the prompt Water.

Flash Fiction for Aspiring Writers – The Bridge


Once there were two kingdoms on either side of opposing cliffs. They had been great enemies once and the large ancient oak tree that connected the two sides was burned until it fell into the waterfall below, as the great kings of both lands fought to a bloody and firey death.

In one kingdom, Giselle the granddaughter of one of the old kings, was to become Queen on her twenty-first birthday. But Giselle was still young and preferred riding in the forest to ruling in her throne. She stared across the divide to the other kingdom and wondered if there was someway across to it and distant lands she had only heard stories about.

One day while exploring, Giselle found secret tunnels that lead down to the valley below and back up the opposing cliff. When she came out on the otherside she found herself face to face with a young man about twenty-five years-old. He was the Prince of that kingdom and his name was Theodore. Theodore knew who Giselle was but did not tell her so, as he wished to know her motives. They fast became friends, then lovers, as they both continued to use the tunnels Giselle had found. A year later they married and united their kingdoms ending a decades old feud and building a bridge that connected both peoples.


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Poem: For Suffering 


If strength should find me,
I would prey, Lord take this pain away.

And he might answer:

“Yes, my child.”

And I could go on with my life.

And feel that I am fortified against the things that make me sad.

The sickness that I live with. 

And I should prey, because prayer heals,

And I think God might be answering my prayers.

But I suffer just the same, as you prayed “Lord take this cup away.”

You promised to fight for me, If only I’d be still.

But having faith is so hard when all you want to do is move, not lie in bed all day.

Yet, I know that you are “I am,” with the whole world in your hands.

And I’m struggling still with the fact, that you would want this future for me

God, why must we suffer?

How could you cause us to feel pain, and love us so. 

The answer given is sublime.

Take a look at He who suffered and died, it is so you might know Him so.

And in your misery become reliant on him.

Because when I am weak He is strong.

But I sing my fight song anyways,

I know that He fights with me now.

And every time I draw away,

He will bring me back again, in the most patient way.

I understand His reasons little

But that one day I should be with Him eternally.

And as a person of the world I walk a thin line.

That I must follow Him and His ways and still deal with being me, a hurting person,

Who wants to live just the way the world goes.

But strength I feel is coming from Him, so I might heal as he trains my soul. 

And one day not feel this again, never in this lifetime or the next. 

Side Effects: What’s Blocking you From Feeling Better


I am having one of those bad days, where it’s hard to describe how I feel to other people. I’m trying my best to get out of it  but everything has this foggy feeling to me. I feel weak and I have this slight tremor. I have this sharp ache that goes through my body. I just want everything to be clear and to feel good, and not be exhausted as if I can’t do anything because I don’t have the energy.

I guess I’m still getting use to the clozapine and getting use to being off other drugs like the rispirdone. I kid you not but it is so hard to get out of bed in the morning I don’t know how I managed it so much easier before. I don’t know what to expect each day, will I feel good or will I feel awful. Not to mention problems with my sinuses aren’t helping things much. Sure I can sleep at night, but at the cost of feeling bad all day, I don’t know what’s better. 

It’s just really frustrating. Even my ears feel over sensitive to sound. And people talking is irritating. These are all the little side effects they say on TV after announcing this miracle drug. You don’t really think too much about them when you go on some medication until you feel the side effects. The truth is sometimes you have to suffer through them and hope they go away. It makes it difficult to get on with your life.

I know I’m complaining, and I don’t mean too so much. I’m just looking forward to a time I will feel better and not sleepy all day. I’m playing the game of chance you play when you try new medications. Have you ever felt awful on a new medication? Did you stay on it or was that it for you?

Leaving Hospital


Well I’m back home now after a three week stay in hospital. Don’t worry, it was nothing serious, just some medication changes that have made my insomnia a thing of the past and allowed me reduce the amount of medication I was taking for my depression or mood disorder. I also spent part of last week and three days this week doing psychological testing. I had done some the first three years after I first became ill and they will compare the data. It might give them an idea what exactly I have. My doctor has never been able to pin point this as their was the psychosis in 2008, and a definite mood component, plus the chronic fatigue. Good luck is all I can say.

I was able to rest up a lot in hospital and had many wonderful visiters at night. A came every Wednesday and brought me this beautiful tall orchid. I was spoiled with too much chocolate and food/drink from the gift shop and other places. I missed most of our hot weather as it was always air conditioned inside. But I did do some walking around the grounds when I was able. I also had extremely nice and excellent room mates, new friends. 

The worst thing was spending my 30th birthday in hospital but I got a pass and went for dinner to Earls South Edmonton Common with my Mom and brother at night. We also discovered the Lindt Chocolate store in the area and were highly impressed. On weekends I had pass to go home. The first pass I felt horrible, the second I went to the mall with my Mom, dinner with A, and errands on Sunday. 

I got out of hospital yesterday. A drove me home in his new car. I am so happy to be home and look forward to a birthday celebration with friends in August, the Taste of Edmonton, reading some books on my tablet, and trying to complete my Residential Interiors program with one course on Residential furnishings. Hopefully, there are some other activities in the works for me. I feel like I have a bit more energy, so I hope it’s true. 

Literary Lion: This Thing Called Time


” How much time until I need to go to work,” you ask your partner as you get ready in the morning. ” What time do I pick my son up from soccer” you ask your sons coach. “How much time do I have?” you ask your doctor after discovering you have cancer in your bones. Time. There is never enough of it yet we seem to be overwhelmed by how much time we have.

” I should be doing something, I feel bored” you say as time ticks by slowly. ” There is such a long time between rounds in play off hockey” your husband says thinking the time off will spoil his teams victory run. “I wish the time would just fly by” an expectant mother feels as she labours for the twenty-forth hour. 

However, if I were to think about it I would say we have a great deal more trouble with not having enough time in today’s society as we fill every moment we have with work, gym, and meetings; piano lessons and sports for the kids inbetween school and homework and friends; preparing healthy meals, and keeping your white picket fence house clean and designer looking; all the time we spend on technology googling, answering emails, typing documents, creating presentations, tweeting, face booking and text messaging; there is never enough time to do it all.

Time is something of an interesting term because it will exist long after we and our descendants are gone. What is time? That’s a hard question maybe a philosophy professor or physicist could answer exactly but I don’t think so. 

Time is what we live in, what limits us from living to long, what limits are cells from regenerating after 120 years if we make it that far. Time is moments we wish to remember forever, it is memories lost to itself, it has a beginning — a Big Bang from an intelligent designer I believe — but we don’t know of times end. We can’t function without time, it would be impossible. 

I guess since we don’t know how much time we have we had best use it well, to help others, and make the world better for a future time. Because we can’t change the past we need to live with passion because every day draws us closer to the end of time as we know it. 

At the end of that time I see God and Heaven, a place that is timeless. What you see, you must decide in what time you have.

Thanks to I am Smith for the prompt time.